” Sweet Spike ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + SMC Pentax-F 50mm F2.8 Macro )

” Nobody likes Sweet Spike… As a matter of fact, nobody liked him ever since he was born. He used to be quite a nice fellow, you know? Unfortunately his strange looks, weird diet and not so much fresh breath made him really unpopular. He’s genuinely desperate nowadays, he just flies around and tries to hug anyone… that can’t be good, can it? He used to be charming, really smart and with a good talk. Sadly enough, time changes everyone… and for poor Sweet Spike the change was not for the better… I mean, I don’t blame him, you know? How would you personally feel if everyone, without any exception, would hate you from the moment they meet you? Not nice, huh? And it wasn’t nice for Spike as well… All he ever wanted was to be just like others; nice, colourful, likeable, cute and things like that. Didn’t work out at all… He got beaten many times, with many different things; newspapers, towels, flip-flops, got electrocuted, sprayed with chemicals and so much more… It’s just painful, you know? Not just for the body, but for the soul as well… Poor Spike, I heard he got addicted to pooh again too. It is not his fault really? The freaking nature designed him like that, what can he do about it? Nothing, exactly… so why all the hate!? Sweet Spike~!! Not everyone hates you~!! Can you hear me~!? Don’t you do anything stupid~!! Some of us understand how you feel and you are not alone~!! Unluckily… Sweet Spike is not with us any more… Those were my last words to him, and this is the last photograph of him. Sweet Spike was found dead at a hotel room in Des Moines, Iowa, on May 25. Test results have shown he died of an accidental diarrhoea overdose. He is survived by… no one. You won’t be missed, but you were still… pretty fly for a stinky guy. “

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” Come Out Come Out ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + SMC Pentax-FA 31mm F1.8 AL Limited )

” Come out, Come out… wherever you are… You can’t hide forever. It is a matter of time when the real you will take control, step out of the shade, come to light, show true colours. You can’t be perfect, not for a longer while. The cracks will start showing up, you’ll break, fall apart. No matter how hard you try, you just can’t be the best version of yourself for too long. It doesn’t matter for who and why… you just can’t. The legend says, you can leave your old you, and become a totally different person in a matter of seconds. The art of personality switch is a long time forgotten skill. You can become whoever you want, do whatever you want, and have whatever you want. You can leave imperfect yourself behind, become someone you have always dreamt of being. Do things you have always been afraid of doing, and finally reach for the things that were out of your reach before. It is not permanent, you can’t stay in that state forever. It’s exhausting and tiring. Is it worth it? Are you determined hard enough? Are you ready to become someone who is not you, in order to get what you want from life? The legends says, if you reach the highest level of mastering the art of personality switch, you can do it whenever you want, and last in the new form… for as long as you need it. It also says, there is a risk of irreversibly damaging and altering your old self. Random unwanted personality switches may occur, without the crucial element of leaving the old mind behind, you may find yourself internally torn apart, wanting two different things most of the time. Eventually you will become demented, living two different lives in one body, eternally split between what you want, and what you can’t… Forever shattered, beyond the point of repair… “

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” It Does Not Matter ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + Samyang 8mm F3.5 Fisheye CS II )

” It does not matter…. You do not need a great looking panorama, mountains, rivers, seas and oceans… There is no need for an open sky with a beautiful palette of warm colours from the sun. All you really need is… just yourself. It is you who can create the reality that surrounds you. You have got the power to feel what you want to feel. It doesn’t take much to trigger a chain of positive feelings about something. It takes time to learn how to do it, but once you learn it, it’s like riding a bike. Sometimes, it is triggered by external factors like: the sun, warm breeze, long shadows, or just a random place. It can be anything really. Once you learn to be “sensitive”, you may get triggered unexpectedly by simple things, the little ones; like a smell, or the way someone looked at you. Other times, you have to put in some effort, think about some positive things and chain them manually, creating greater and greater feeling of happiness. Me personally, I love those random encounters that make me feel special and so happy, even though I know they do not last for very long. As for the manual chaining those little happy things into a bigger and more steady state of happiness… Well, I treat it as my plan B, a handy tool to get me out of the darker moments of my thinking. Can you see this photograph? It was one of those random encounters, triggered totally unexpectedly, just by being there. It feels a little bit like jumping into a pool. You just step into it. You go, everything is normal, and at some point you just stop. You start noticing that it feels different in this particular place. There is some kind of unexplained energy beaming from it, and it feels amazing. You just stand there and can’t move, well you can, but you do not want to. Everything feels so beautiful… Warm sun, amazing shadows, even the texture of an old and broken pavement looks out of this world. It just… I don’t know… It feels like my mind is breaching the boundaries of what you can perceive with normal senses. It is addictive. Every time I go for another walk with my camera, I quietly wish to feel that again. I think… I have managed to capture some of it… in this photograph. Please, have a look. “

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” Good Afternoon Mr Tree ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + Samyang 8mm F3.5 Fisheye CS II )

” Good afternoon to you too, Mr Tree. How are you doing on this fine day? Good to hear, sir… good to hear. Oh, me? I am just fine, thank you. It is such a wonderful weather today, isn’t it? Yes, I completely agree. It really looks like a perfect day, doesn’t it? All those snowy white, puffy clouds in the blue sky, and this refreshing breeze… It is absolutely marvellous. Dear sir, would you mind if I took a photograph of you and these charming surroundings? No… No, not at all. You will fit just perfectly, worry not, sir. A little to the right, please. Hold it! Hold it… Got it~!! Now, that is going to be extraordinary once I return home and develop it, I can feel it. What the f… who the hell was I talking to!? A tree!? I am losing it… I am losing it again, what am I doing… She really crashed us, didn’t she… Way too fast chan… way too fast. We have totally lost the ground under our feet, haven’t we? You should have known better… fast changes are never good, they never are. One thing I will never understand though… How in the hell did she manage to break something already so broken, even more… how? It’s beyond me. Does it mean… I wasn’t broken before? Hmm, doesn’t matter. This tree… it bends like my reality… trying to reach the impossible. Are the things we always wanted really impossible, or are we making them that way? What is really stopping us from what we want in life? Is it reality… or what we create ourselves? The mush of loneliness, doubt, lack of entertainment, sense of direction and happiness, all this… at the same time. Such a bad timing Mr Chan, poor planning, too much emotions… too much of everything. I need my way of life back, my philosophy and beliefs, I need it all back. I don’t want to go back to the same place though, no. I need something different, I need to give myself a chance for something new, I need to know for sure. I can almost hear the voice telling me… Do not try and bend the tree. That’s impossible. Instead… only try to realise the truth. What truth? There is no tree. Then you’ll see, that it is not the tree that bends, it is only yourself. “

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” Out Of Place ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + SMC Pentax-FA 77mm F1.8 Limited )

” Poor little thing… It has been looking for its place for so long… so hard too. After years of fruitless wanders, it had finally resigned and let all what was left from its hope go. There was no point holding on to it any more, the fight was over, a loss without much pain. In the long run, it finally got used to its sub-dreamed life, and I even dare to say… it was quite happy for a while. The small but important part was still missing, but it was okay, it wasn’t so bad, it could live without it. One day, totally out of the blue, this great opportunity came along, out of nowhere, really… It was persistent, believable, full of energy and faith… It was fighting so fiercely, with so much heart and passion… Eventually, it gave it a chance… nobody has ever made it feel so special before after all… It was the best thing that has ever happened to the poor thing. Unfortunately, everything beautiful that has come with the opportunity, has also dragged everything out that’s ugly from the poor bastard. It has faced challenges it has never even dreamt about, and even though it tried its best to cooperate with all of them… Ultimately, it has failed to win the most important ones. The beautiful opportunity has decided to walk away at the end of the day, and the poor thing… Well, with its life half-changed for something greater that has never come… it has been left hanging… slightly out of place. The old wall is no more, and the new one… may never come. It feels uncomfortable, cold and lonely. I guess it’s all what it has got now… Another loss, dead end, defeat… this time bloody painful. “

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” Changes ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-50 + HD Pentax-DA 35mm F2.8 Limited Macro )

” Changes… even when they are bad, they are still good. It is something we need in order to evolve, learn and be. It doesn’t matter if we are the ones making them, the life goes on, and it constantly morphs into something new. There are no permanent things. Something that was blue once, might be yellow soon, just to change into green later on. We cannot expect to last forever, nothing ever does… All those changes give us a clear idea about one thing, there is something after death, and we don’t need any religion to tell us about it. Our lives have been changing with the very moment of our existence. We cannot escape it, nor avoid it… What we can, is to use it to our advantage, make the best of it. Nothing is ever lost, just like nothing is ever sure… “

 

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New photograph every weekend

New photograph every weekend – a weird man and his weird reasons behind the camera

(IMPORTANT: click play before you start reading! This is what I was listening to, when I was writing)

It’s been a while since my last photograph… I used to upload a new one every day.

Something happened when I’ve sold my Fuji-film x100. At first I didn’t want to continue photography anymore but I wasn’t totally sure about it. When I saw someone selling the Pentax camera (which I was considering, before I decided for x100 ) for a really good price, I couldn’t resist and bought it.

The camera was sitting in my desk unit most of the time. A weather was terrible and I was running out of ideas to supply a new photograph every day. At one point I run out of photographs to work with and I got totally depressed. I think I haven’t touched my Pentax K-50 for a month or even longer, I was thinking about selling my gear once again…

I’ve been thinking a lot and I have answered myself few important questions which helped me get out of this slump.

First, I needed to find a subject of my art and a great idea came to my mind. I wanted to get on roofs of tall buildings (block of flats mostly) and take photographs of a city from above. Unfortunately, almost all rooftops are locked and there is no way to get in there without breaking the law… At first, I was willing to go for it anyway… I have started reading about picking the locks, how to open padlocks or pass entryphone which blocks every stairwell. Unluckily, I have also found out that pick locks are illegal in Poland… Possession of an illegal item + breaking in into a secured area, could get me in plenty of a serious trouble… Sigh, another dead-end…

 

” Training is like life, you get your ups and downs, but if you think about your problems hard enough and logically enough, you’ll either solve them or reach a compromise. ” — Reg Park

I love this quote so much… I use it the other way around, mostly to deal with my life problems.

As you may have guessed, I have found a compromise 🙂

 

For years I have been seeing the beauty of the everyday life, places and objects, not sure what to do with it… An invisible link between worlds which has always been pulling me in… How can you explain it to someone? The strange energy of awe that is coming from certain places, moments and things… How can you share them when they are so fragile that every second might be their last… – tgchan

 

I wrote this shortly after I have got into a fine art photography to describe what my art is about ( I know that many people will only see my photography as some random snapshots, it’s ok… I understand them. It’s hard for me to explain this in words, think alone about showing this in a still image. Most of my old photographs are here as well, I really don’t like them but I have decided to leave them, as they are part of me and my evolution ).

So, why did I mention it? This quote reminded me of my original reason of getting my first camera, to show and share ” …the beauty of the everyday life, places and objects… “. I don’t have marvellous looking seas, oceans, mountains, cityscapes etc around me… but it doesn’t matter, I don’t need them (not anymore). I am fortunate to see things that many people can’t… and there are plenty of them where I live (they are everywhere as matter of fact).

At some point, I have reconciled myself that I will probably never earn any money from what I do. It’s ok, it was never the original reason why I have picked up the camera in the first place… just something that came along the way, a futile hope of me earning the money from something I truly love to do.

Anyway, after I have accepted the earlier mentioned fact, I could focus on my senses even more… I don’t think about what people may like/buy anymore… I only focus on what really feels important to me and me alone (yes, I don’t give a single fuck about you… – can I have a cookie for the honesty ?)

It’s quite easy with items, but how can you show a place the way you experience it in real life? Well the focal length of a 75mm ( Pentax K-50 + SMC Pentax-DA 50mm F1.8 ) which was the only option I had, certainly would have a problem with that. I have decided to invest in a wide, really wide angle lens. I am still not sure how good the photographs will look from it, even though I have taken plenty of them already. See, I don’t check what I have captured right away. I gather my material for some time and then I start to develop it, one photograph after another in the same order I have taken them.

As I have mentioned, I have been gathering material for some time already and I am close to start developing it. For now I have to learn a new software which I want to try out. I don’t interfere much with my photographs and I hate changing/altering them. I just want to make them as close as I can, to what I have seen in real life (contrast, saturation, highlights, shadows etc – basic stuff).

When you look at one of my photographs I want you to see exactly what I have seen at that moment. I don’t add or remove things from the original, this is not my style ( + I hate complicated stuff like photoshop etc ). So, when you look at it, you know it’s REAL.

 

I can’t stress enough, how much I have enjoyed my recent journeys with the camera… I will try to describe it as good as I can, because I believe it’s an important background information which explains the source of motivation and the subject matter in my photography (especially the recent one).

I don’t have an official job (not anymore) and I have plenty of free time ( I give private tuition in English – for kids mostly, which is the main source of my income. It’s not much but it’s enough since I live in my parents’ house ).

I have chosen really early mornings for my recent photography trips and I couldn’t have picked a better time! I am quite shy person with a low self-esteem and I don’t feel too good around plenty of people, especially with the camera in my hands – which brings attention!

Everyone is busy in the mornings: job, kids, school, meetings, nursery, dog etc, they simply have no time to focus on me 🙂 .

I, on the other hand… I am free like a bird! I love looking at people, see them in a hurry, busy with their duties and obligations. It feels like I am not living in the same reality as they are, it’s magical…

Older people seem to be more like me, they go out with their dogs, take slow strolls for their own pleasure etc.

So, I walk and walk, taking the pleasure with every step I take, looking around, absorbing the amazing energy coming from my freedom. I explore every corner, street, building and everything that surrounds and interest me. The sun shines, birds chirp and soft wind gently stroke me as I stroll through the waking up city… If if you could only walk with me, feel what I feel and see what I see… I am not there… It feels like I am in a dream.

The entryphones which were blocking my way into stairwells are not a problem anymore…  People go in and out a lot in the mornings so, I just make my way in with them. I use stairs for my way up and down (10 floors) but sometimes my right knee gives up after walking for hours (my usual trip = 3-5 hours of constant walking + plenty of stairs ) and I am forced to use those old and creepy elevators… So far, I have been 4 or 5 times and every time, I was limping back to my car, barely able to walk with the enormous pain in my knee… and you know what? I can’t wait to go out again!

I used to live in a block of flats / apartment block and I loved it. Now, when I climb on the top floors, once again I can smell what people cook and listen to the ambient sounds, coming from behind the doors… I wish I could live just for a few days in every flat, explore different rooms, sit in a cosy place, relax and enjoy the unique atmosphere in each one of them, look through the windows and see what they see every day…

It’s truly hard to describe it in words, what I feel in certain places, even though it’s very vivid and clear to me. Make sure you read the descriptions of my photographs, as I always try to pour on some of my feelings in short stories, poems or some other odd literary genres… where I share what I see and feel.

 

New photograph will be uploaded every weekend (on website linked below), starting from now on. Thank you for reading and checking my work, have a nice day!

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” Pattern ” by tgchan ( Fujifilm X100 BLACK Limited Edition )

” I have no idea who might want to complicate such a simple thing like building a wall… I mean wall is a wall right? Wrong! As you can see some people can create art out of anything, change boring and ordinary things into something special. You can only imagine how much longer it had to take to finish it… The person who designed it must have been a little crazy. I wonder who is more insane though… A man who creates such things or a guy who wandered for five hours to finally take a photograph of a wall at night… ”

 

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