” Dunno One ” by tgchan ( Sony A6500 + Sony Zeiss 24mm f/1.8 )

There are so many artists… Even more people with all sorts of talents… It scares me… It scares me that there are so many amazing individuals the world does not know about? Why? Why do they have to live a life of an unknown? Why some people, very often less talented, climb the ladder of success while the rest, more deserved of that place, have to live a lesser life? It looks like having a talent and knowing about it is just not enough to be out there. You have to make yourself visible. You can’t be famous or even appreciated if the world doesn’t know about your existence. Death is the last scream your personality makes before it vanishes forever. I mean, even if you get all the ovations you can get, but you are still dead, what is it good for? You either make it on time, or it doesn’t matter… Unless you dream about some fame after your departure to another life. The one thing that scares me even more is not finding your real talent before it’s too late, or ever at all. I am genuinely scared of living my life the wrong way. ” Remember, the saddest thing in life is wasted talent. You could have all the talent in the world, but if you don’t do the right thing, then nothing happens. ” – A Bronx Tale (1993)

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” Industrial Beauty ” by tgchan ( Sony A6500 + Sony Zeiss 24mm f/1.8 )

” It is one of those pieces… One of those pieces that nobody understands… Hesitation… should I delete it and move on looking for something more popularly likeable? No Chan, you shouldn’t. Trust your instinct. You were browsing photographs and something clicked right away when you saw it for the first time. That’s pure, something real, genuine beauty in its raw form. Keep it. So I did. It’s really hard to explain what I love about it without giving my own eyes and mind to someone else to experience it my way. Though I shall do my best and try to explain it. Let’s start with the major things first. Light and shade, both living in mutual respect, both perfectly completing each other. There is a beautiful bright and happy sky on the upper part, there is also not so happy darker shaded area at the bottom. They give this balanced and complete look of it. You also cannot not notice those four beautiful chrome chimneys… All shiny and glittering in the sun. An amazing reflection of them on the nearby wall, awesome green grass at the bottom left corner, billowy clouds above, branches… There is so much going on, so many things to look at… It’s cosy… It’s one of those special places. I call them ‘magical spots’. You just want to stand there and enjoy everything that surrounds you. It makes you so happy, full of appreciation and energy to live. It is also very hard to capture it. I keep looking at it, and I can’t believe I almost deleted it… I love it so much. Those colours and tint… Everything just ads up to itself creating this Industrial Beauty. Things like that gets me going another hours, days, weeks worth of pure walking… Just to find another one of those magical spots… “

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” Miscellaneous ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + SMC Pentax-FA 77mm F1.8 Limited )

” Beautiful interesting miscellaneous embedded in grey and boring matter. If I would be a child now again and saw this in real life, I would be planning and plotting immediately on extracting those gems. I remember when I was a kid, we used to hit similar wall with rocks and other things in order to get some nice pieces of it. There was this fountain located on a military premises, right next to a housing estate where my grandparents live (actually it was the special housing estate for military personnel families), and the wall circling it was made of concrete with embedded colourful glass. There were also three pyramid-like sculptures in the centre of the fountain which also had pieces of colourful glass in them. We used to sneak into military premises to reach this beautiful construction, and of course to get some of those precious jewels. Imagine a bunch of kids hitting old fountain with rocks, smashing it to pieces just to get some slivers of the coloured glass. It must have been such a joyful scene to witness. Of course we knew we are only children and even if soldiers would catch us, we would talked our way out of it. Obviously nobody in their right mind would like to find themselves in such scenario, so when someone spotted us, we ran away faster than wind. After some time, we have found even better spot than the fountain. It turned out, they were liquidating something we had no idea about, maybe another fountain, but there were huge piles of rubble, which also contained plenty of colourful glass that we were mining so persistently. Unfortunately my happiness didn’t last too long… After a few trips to our new discovered place, I cut my hand wide open with one of those precious treasures… it had to be stitched. As far as I remember that was my last journey there… So when I recently saw this little wall with colourful stuff in it, my mind went crazy and took me right back to those carefree times… I think the real fun had finished when we found plenty of what we were trying to get so hard. I think it is true with life in general. If you can get something easily, there is no much of a value to it… “

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” Amber Gem ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + SMC Pentax-FA 77mm F1.8 Limited )

” I had found this amber gem a few minutes before it started to rain. Dark and ominous clouds covered the sky, and just when I was rounding the last block of flats, I found it. I wasn’t sure about it at first… But now, I am glad I had taken out my camera and captured it. There is something about it. The simplicity perhaps? Or the colours? Hmm… maybe the texture of the wall? I don’t know… And even though I am not sure what’s so special about it… I undoubtedly and honestly like it. It is my precious gem. Caught right in the last moment, before everything turned grey. The light itself looks like a little sun, captured in a glass shell. You can almost feel its warmth on your face when you look at it. Liquid magma contained in a carefully polished jewel. My precious treasure… you’re mine now. I keep starring at it, wishing my eyes could see more. Something magnificent has been captured here. I truly cannot get enough of it… but why?~! It is just an ordinary lamp on a building. I love it… I love it so much, and I don’t even know why… I guess it is yet another irony of life. Sometimes you just feel it… There are no words to describe it, nor logical explanation. You just know. You know it’s real and genuine… You can feel it deep down in yourself, living a separate life from your own… Unbiased and far away from any false influence. It just is… “

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” Green Starry Fellow ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + Samyang 8mm F3.5 Fisheye CS II )

” Damn… I feel so lazy today… I should be writing something smart here, but I am so not in the mood… and my god damn lower back hurts too… Anyway, this is the plant and it looks cool. Thanks-Bye-Please come again. Hah, nah… I am just joking… but I really do feel extremely lazy right now, and I don’t feel like I have got some nice writing in me today. Maybe it is the photograph… maybe it is just boring, and this is why I can’t write anything interesting about it? Hmm… but I like it. There is something about this scene. All those shapes, light and patterns, they speak to me in some weird language I do not understand, but I still like what I am hearing nonetheless… It feels like someone has spent more than enough time for this place. Caring about details, preparing it, like she would know that one day I would come and capture her work. I said ‘she’ because I think we can mutually agree, no dude would do such a thing, right? But then again… I might be mistaken. Oh well, it doesn’t really matter who did it anyway. The important thing is, it has been created, and I had a chance to capture it, that is all that matters. I wonder what is your favourite thing in this scene. I totally love the upper part of the lace curtain. It looks like some wicked sea waves during a dark and stormy night. The starry plant itself, doesn’t look too bad either. Hmm… the longer I look at it, the more things I like about it. I am glad it made it through. Damn… all this writing reminded me about very important thing. Never ever force yourself to anything, unless you really have no choice about it. It is just a waste of energy. I don’t say nothing good can come out of it, but the whole process is such a chore, that it may give a totally opposite result in the long run. Just go with the flow, and when it doesn’t go smoothly, leave it there, change direction, and do not look behind. Real talent doesn’t require a heck of a lot of energy to do things, you just do them, and you are not really getting tired from doing them. That’s the beauty of a talent. So, if this is what you are after, it is quite easy to notice if you are on the right path. Take care. “

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” True Enlightenment ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + Samyang 8mm F3.5 Fisheye CS II )

( Pozdrawiam oraz dziekuje przemilym Paniom, ktore pozwolily mnie sie wiercic z aparatem w ich sklepie :* )

” I am so jealous of those who got enlightened… I am so full of envy for the ones who know where to go… Oh, what a feeling must it be… How amazing must it feel to know you can focus all your energy to pursuit your destiny, instead of wasting it for countless searches… How incredible it must be to run as fast as you can, looking only forward, without peripheral thoughts of better alternatives… How marvellous it must be to wake up every day, and know you can do things that will eventually bring you closer to your final goal… How soothing it must be… to have thousands of lights guiding you through the darkness of night… How convenient it must be to know you are on the right path… The awareness that all it takes from now on… is just energy to move forward, towards the great award. I can see thousands of light bulbs shining… Unfortunately none of them are bright enough, to clearly let me know they are the one I should follow… How can I trust any of them, when the light they produce is so weak and dim, I could easily mistake it for my own troubled and hungry imagination…? I keep looking at all of them at once, persistently waiting for one that will go so bright, I will not have any doubt. At the same time I am shaking and praying that the one I am waiting for, is not behind my back… “

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” State Of Cosiness ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + Samyang 8mm F3.5 Fisheye CS II )

” Every place has got a history behind it… Every mark has got its own meaning… but WHAT THE FOCK HAS HAPPENED HERE~?! Oh well, it must have been something if I had taken out my camera and took some shots of it, right? Damn right it is something ~!! It might not be the most cosy place you could have imagined, but I am still in a strong opinion that it is a beautiful and unique view. In a world where everything strives to be perfect, nice and spotless… this stands out and shouts in your face… FUCK YOU AND YOUR PERFECT WORLD MATE~!! And you know what…? I like it. I love it. I just wish I could see and experience every single moment that has scarred this place with its own uniqueness. I would love to feel that anger, hate, love, excitement and everything else that has caused this place to look the way it looks now. It is truly a rare view nowadays… It might not be the prettiest, it doesn’t try to be something it is not, I agree… but it feels real… Real enough to keep you wonder about the rest of the world packed with lies and masks that try to cover your eyes with something that is not really there… So if you ask me, what do I see in this wretched place? My answer would be… Everything that you cannot my dear… because your eyes are not used to see what is real any more. Every single mark is connected to a strong emotional feeling that has occurred at some point in past. It almost feels like a giant raw database, a CD full of music you cannot really hear, a pack of files on a memory stick you cannot read… A secret message that is not to be decoded or understood… merely felt and forgotten… “

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” What A Hole ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + Samyang 8mm F3.5 Fisheye CS II )

” Wow… what a hole… It’s still beautiful, isn’t it? It is quite astonishing, how a place empty like this, can be still so charming. That light coming through broken windows, all small particles lying around and of course… a little bit of human touch, adding plenty of various colours to the mixture. It feels so special to be in such place at proper moment… when everything adds up, makes sense and lives in a perfect harmony. You stand there, being blessed seeing all this, admiring and having a hard time believing that you have made it, you are the one to experience all that in person, you have been chosen. This place also reminds me of my life. It is so interesting, complicated and simple at the same time… Charming, dangerous to itself and everyone else around it. It looks so calm, yet you can almost hear the concrete screaming with anger, disappointment and helplessness. Sadly… it is also hollow and empty… The place with so much space to fill. Unfortunately, it is almost impossible to find anything that will suit its natural beauty. You either change it or leave it empty. I do not want to be neither. I want to find a balance between those two. I want to find a perfect filling to compose with those rotting walls and its natural silent chaos. Is it even possible? Or is it just another dreamed-up fantasy world created in my mind, purely to believe in fairy dust? “

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” Prisoners ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + Samyang 8mm F3.5 Fisheye CS II )

” Do you believe your mind is free? Can you really do what you want in life? Sometimes it feels like my head is going to explode any second… I cannot stop thinking, analysing, calculating odds, looking for patterns and explanations. The train of thoughts is speeding through my mind, leaving nothing but a chaos and disorder behind. I am trying to focus and catch at least one wagon, something I could start with… but they all go so fast, so many of them… I am just standing there and looking at them how they keep passing me by, flickering in front of my eyes, leaving only bits behind… I am trying to pick them up and make sense of it, but it is just not enough. So I stand up and keep looking at them again, hoping that some bigger chunk will fall out eventually, something that will help me understand. How can you break free from a prison that you cannot see or touch? …but you can still feel it, and you know it’s there, real… like anything else you are experiencing in the physical world. The prison that nobody else can help you out from. The place that exist only in your mind, yet… so sophisticated and efficient at keeping you away from being truly alive. I have managed to escape from a typical life. Nothing really have me in its grip. Money, love, career etc. I am beyond the great scheme. I have walked out of the life’s blueprint just to find out, there is nothing out there. I look at it, far away from a distance, in darkness. I can see how it works… People like ants, constantly busy with their little lives… somehow I still envy them. I have been running away from it for so long… now I wish I would never had, I think. How can I go back? Is it even possible? Can I forget what I have seen and know? Do I even really want it? It looks like ignorance is bliss. I have escaped one prison… just to lock myself up in another one. Good job, Chan. You really made it worthwhile… Okay, since going back is not a real option… How can I turn it to my advantage? Why am I having such a problem with exploiting what I know? Why do I want to be a good guy? Am I the good guy? Who are those people? Is it me? Does each one of them represent a possible life I have locked myself away from? I am scared to look left and see how many times I have done that… I am even more frightened to look right, and see how many more times I will do it again… Wait… do I see the light there? “

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” Inception Of The Tree Of Life ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + Samyang 8mm F3.5 Fisheye CS II )

” The Tree of Life… What are you doing here all alone, surrounded by all those concrete walls with glassy eyes? You are far away from your place, you must be so lonely… Look what they have done to you… How can you live like that? Constantly drowned in shadows, waiting whole days just for a glimpse of sunshine… it must be unbearable. Hmm… now that sounds awfully familiar… I think I know what keeps you alive, and I am most certainly sure how you must feel. Worry not my dear fellow, you are not alone in this miserable journey. You are beautiful, you know… You might not be in your ideal place in life, but you are truly special, and those who are lucky enough to be in your presence, really do enjoy your magnificence. Lost, but still unique and so uncanny. Have you ever wondered, why are we placed the way we are in our existence? Is it a pure randomness, or is it something entirely greater than that? If it is the first thing… we are truly fucked, aren’t we my friend? Imagine uprooting now, after so many years of wasted life… it can’t be easy, can it? If it is the second option… well, we have some purpose of being in such a position, and we can’t do much about it, except for understanding it, and waiting for the highest point in our lives. I don’t know… this thinking feels too comforting, could it be just a nasty lie? Where do you even seek such an answer? Can you know for sure, once you learn of it? Dear Tree… what is it going to be? Do we really have a chance? Can we really turn things upside down? Look, the sky is already bending to your will… I think we can… “

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