” Dunno One ” by tgchan ( Sony A6500 + Sony Zeiss 24mm f/1.8 )

There are so many artists… Even more people with all sorts of talents… It scares me… It scares me that there are so many amazing individuals the world does not know about? Why? Why do they have to live a life of an unknown? Why some people, very often less talented, climb the ladder of success while the rest, more deserved of that place, have to live a lesser life? It looks like having a talent and knowing about it is just not enough to be out there. You have to make yourself visible. You can’t be famous or even appreciated if the world doesn’t know about your existence. Death is the last scream your personality makes before it vanishes forever. I mean, even if you get all the ovations you can get, but you are still dead, what is it good for? You either make it on time, or it doesn’t matter… Unless you dream about some fame after your departure to another life. The one thing that scares me even more is not finding your real talent before it’s too late, or ever at all. I am genuinely scared of living my life the wrong way. ” Remember, the saddest thing in life is wasted talent. You could have all the talent in the world, but if you don’t do the right thing, then nothing happens. ” – A Bronx Tale (1993)

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” Bandage Man ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + SMC Pentax-FA 77mm F1.8 Limited )

Original Street Artist: Anna Matuszewska in association with Galeria Sztuki 58, Radom.

” A face full of scars, eyes filled with tears and a heart shattered by thousands of unfulfilled and broken dreams… Still looking up, still… searching for light. Another dream, another failure… pain… another scar to patch up. Living deep down, below in darkness, almost at the bottom… not low enough to bounce back and regain control, drifting… A soul so battered and ripped apart, it scares with all the hollows, echoes and ever-tearing stitches. Tears changing into pus, life shifting gracefully into a coma… a blissful lethargy, slowly taking everything away. There’s no fight, not anymore, only compliance. Awakening, again. Another vision, another hope. Looking in the mirror, still deformed… unsightly. Nothing has changed, nothing ever does… Euphoria, enlightenment, hope, happiness, enchantment, love… Taking a razor blade, a short glance at a shiny frail piece of steel, time to fail once again. Cutting the soft flesh of own face… warm red liquid covers all. Look, another broken dream… another chance for a new life, another distraction, another mark. A white cloth takes a place of a fresh and swollen wound, I can still feel… I can still dream. What have I become… Will I ever succeed, and start living before I am finally gone… ? “

 

Photography Prints

 

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” My Shy First Model ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + SMC Pentax-FA 77mm F1.8 Limited )

Original Street Artist: Anna Matuszewska in association with Galeria Sztuki 58, Radom.

” I work mostly with the subjects that do not complain much. They do not require anything more than being discovered and captured properly. They do not ask for money, return of favour or anything else to be honest… they are just happy the world can see them. I am not going to lie though… I would love to capture some beautiful girls too. Unfortunately, it would be utterly complicated for both sides. I do not go for any compromises, so… natural light only, my place of choice, my time of the day etc. and etc. I don’t think there are many people who are willing to sacrifice so much for almost nothing in return. So yea… no beautiful girls for me, at least for now. Maybe I will start with my family, hmm… The problem is, I either see beauty or ugliness. There is no middle ground in my eyes and I don’t think they would like to see what I wanted to see. Oh well, I’ll start with my grandparents, I think they won’t mind. As for people in general, there are some fine specimens walking on the face of our planet. I myself have seen some amazing looking girls, and I am not talking about some popular type of beauty here, more like something extraordinary and unique, something you don’t see every day. There aren’t too many out there, but you can still find them, just like with everything else that is valuable. The problem is, how do you approach a girl that is 5 years old without getting arrested? Obviously you should talk with parents but… Who on Earth would go with some creep with a camera around a city in search for a perfect place, light etc. It should be easier with older girls and women but it is not… Everyone is super busy with their own life, not to mention the idea of going to some shady places with a total stranger… As for now, being awfully famous is the only solution that should deal with my problems in this difficult scenario. Or rich, I could always offer a nice sum of money in return for me being weird. So yes, this is my first model. She is a bit shy, but I still have a mad respect for her. She’s the one ladies and gents, she is the first one that let me be weird around her. “

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” Loner ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + SMC Pentax-FA 77mm F1.8 Limited )

Original Street Artist: Anna Matuszewska in association with Galeria Sztuki 58, Radom.

” We all knew that one guy or gal at some point of our lives… that one individual that always preferred being alone. It is not an easy task to stray away like that from a group. You are automatically targeted as the first one to pick on, you are not a part of them, so you are always less liked and valuable. I could go on and on with that list, I don’t think I could find any advantages to it at all… At least, not the ones that others would find valuable to them. One of the worst things… …trying to be like others… Trying to mimic their way of being, easiness of living nice and careless life full of happiness and joy, constantly looking for a way into their world. Even with all that effort and trying, they will never be a part of it. They will always look in a different direction no matter what, strive for things that other people find trivial and not worth bothering. They lust for being within a group, but when they finally get there… They find it all awkward, fake and with constant pressure of being someone else, someone they are not. All this pretending and acting wears them off rather quickly. It is a matter of time, when they start looking for the way out of the place they have wished for in the first place. So they go back eventually… They go back to their own tiny, limitless, cosy life of thoughts. It might not be real, it may never be real, but it feels good, comfortable, and they feel like it is the only place they can enjoy anything. The sun might not be shining directly upon them, but it doesn’t mean they are living in darkness. While the other children might be having the time of their lives, playing and laughing all together… Some, might just wish to be somewhere close. Close enough to hear their laughs, cheering and happiness, but not too close to invade their world of thoughts and loneliness. “

 

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” Determination ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + SMC Pentax-FA 77mm F1.8 Limited )

Original Street Artist: Anna Matuszewska in association with Galeria Sztuki 58, Radom.

” Have you ever felt like life is trying to stamp you out? Have you ever felt a giant boot on your back trying to drown you in a puddle of mud? Don’t give up… Hold on… Endure. Life occasionally likes to throw you in at the deep end, and see how you do. No matter what, you cannot let it get you down. You have to keep your head above a threshold of resignation. Your body can suffer, it is only a vessel, but your mind… If it gets your mind, you are done my friend. Do not let it get inside of your head. Keep believing, throwing away all negative thoughts, stay focused, have your aim clear and in front of your eyes at all time. It takes a second of doubt and it’s over, you are doomed. It takes hours, days, months and even years to shake it off, start again. Even if you have to lie to yourself, do it. Once you reach your goal, the lie might become reality. People are not aware of how much we can control with our mind… Do things others think are impossible, shape our lives and bend the reality around us. If you think something is right, it probably is. Trust your instinct, it’s there for a bloody reason. Once you decide to go down your own path, the one that your instinct helped you choose, you are at war… At war with life and its own vision of your destiny. It will be dark and musty, it will be cold, it will hurt a lot and it will reek with decay, mould and with an easy way out of it… All you have to do to finish it, is just simply give up. Give up, on your own path you have chosen. Don’t. Do not give up. Life will be constantly trying to knock you down from the very last hope you are still hanging on. Keep strong. Look only there, where you can see yourself happy at the end of this rocky and slippery route you have picked as your own. Don’t give up… Hold on… Endure. Do not let go. Once life understands that you will never change your mind, it will has to back off and give you what you have been fighting for for so long. Keep hanging, keep fighting, stay focused and one day… you will feel this warm and pleasant light on your face. The light that will change everything from now on… “

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” Hurt ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + SMC Pentax-FA 77mm F1.8 Limited )

Original Street Artist: Anna Matuszewska in association with Galeria Sztuki 58, Radom.

” Why do we hurt each other? What is even more important… Why do we hurt people we love? We hate the idea of hurting people we care about, yet we still do it… Is it the unknown? Is it because you can feel it more than anything else? Are we checking them or ourselves? That delicate and barely perceptible feeling of satisfaction that we caused someone pain. You can easily hide it, it’s a weak feeling, but it is there and you know it. Somewhere deep deep inside of you, you enjoyed it, you liked it, it feels good doesn’t it? We like to hurt, and we like being hurt. It shakes our flat emotionless life from time to time a bit, reminds us to appreciate the good things in our stagnated and impassive existence. Or maybe… Maybe I am wrong…? What if I got this all wrong!? Maybe people are not like that at all, maybe it is… Maybe it is just me…? Could it be, just me? What if I am a monster leeching on someone else’s feelings and emotions? What if I am a parasite feeding on souls of innocent creatures, causing them pain, and look… how they suffer in results of my foul doing. What if I cannot or don’t know how to love, and hurting is the only thing that makes me feel…? “

 

Art Prints

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” The Child’s View ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + SMC Pentax-FA 77mm F1.8 Limited )

Original Street Artist: Anna Matuszewska in association with Galeria Sztuki 58, Radom.

” It is quite fascinating how children’s eyes see the world. It doesn’t matter if they are living in a dream place or just in a poor and grey tenement, their world is still much more colourful than ours. No matter what happens around them, their reality stays pure and innocent. They don’t see things, the way we do. Their lack of sophisticated thinking, and not overthinking things, makes them genuine, frank and transparent in their doings. They don’t worry about the past, the future or even the present… They say and do what they feel and want. Their mind is free, light and focused on the essence of life. They do not limit themselves to the world they are living in, they create their own. The head full of dreams, ideas and a vision that the whole universe is just a giant playground. Unfortunately, somewhere along the way, we start losing this unique ability. Day after day, our mind is getting polluted more and more, our vision blurred and senses mutilated… Soon, we are all stripped-down, left with some single hopes to live on… “

 

Photography Prints

 

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” Locked In Emptiness ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + SMC Pentax-FA 77mm F1.8 Limited )

Original Street Artist: Anna Matuszewska in association with Galeria Sztuki 58, Radom.

” Locked away by none other than himself, trapped in abyss, floating in vacuum of despair… Dreaming about life high, far above everything, living secretly underneath everyone else… Come… come closer please, look into a darkness, try to see my face… Tell me that what I see, is only a fear of what I might be. Locked in a cell of confusion, I’ve got enough. Trying to find a key, now the lock… Where the hell is it. No!! no… It’s gone… I can’t get out, I’ll never be free… Reaching with my hands out, trying to squeeze out, I can’t… I am being devoured, pulled down. I am sitting in a black corner looking at the light, thinking… The key in my hand… Heh… The lock and now the key… I’ve been waiting too long, it’s melting. I can hear the life right outside of my door… Smell it, see and even touch it sometimes… but I can never be a part of it. I have been here for so long… Do I even remember why I have decided to lock myself in this place… Of all those things I could have been, I have chosen not to be at all. My hands holding the rims of the hole, the face hidden far away from the light of life, it’s still afraid. I am looking at it for the last time, before I turn around, and walk deep into the darkness in search of myself. Where will the black tunnel lead me…? Will there be another door at the end of it, or just a dead end? I can hear voices calling my name, I am not turning around, I remember… Now I remember who and why locked me in here… Now I understand who destroyed the lock… Why did you leave the key…? “

 

Photography Prints

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