” Dunno One ” by tgchan ( Sony A6500 + Sony Zeiss 24mm f/1.8 )

There are so many artists… Even more people with all sorts of talents… It scares me… It scares me that there are so many amazing individuals the world does not know about? Why? Why do they have to live a life of an unknown? Why some people, very often less talented, climb the ladder of success while the rest, more deserved of that place, have to live a lesser life? It looks like having a talent and knowing about it is just not enough to be out there. You have to make yourself visible. You can’t be famous or even appreciated if the world doesn’t know about your existence. Death is the last scream your personality makes before it vanishes forever. I mean, even if you get all the ovations you can get, but you are still dead, what is it good for? You either make it on time, or it doesn’t matter… Unless you dream about some fame after your departure to another life. The one thing that scares me even more is not finding your real talent before it’s too late, or ever at all. I am genuinely scared of living my life the wrong way. ” Remember, the saddest thing in life is wasted talent. You could have all the talent in the world, but if you don’t do the right thing, then nothing happens. ” – A Bronx Tale (1993)

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” Decoloured ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + SMC Pentax-F 50mm F2.8 Macro )

” What you see, what you feel… sometimes can go two different ways. Everything turns green, blooms, birds happily chirping, frogs croaking, colours have invaded dark and boring places… spring is here. It is warm, very warm, almost summer-like too warm, but the wind is making it all nice. Everything is so cheerful, happy and so damn alive… I am not unhappy or sad… unsettled and a little lost perhaps… I wish I could synchronise better with all beautiful life around me, derive more pleasure and satisfaction from where I am and what I have. Some things are sprouting and growing full of life, others shrivelling up and dying left alone… Spring, the time when yang is aggressively taking back what yin took not such a long time ago… I can see so many beautiful colours, I am so grey inside… I can feel so much life around me, yet I can barely live and feel my own. I can feel I become desaturated even more. The process of decolourisation is eating me alive, corroding my being and mind. Shake it off, shake it off, regain control. Bring the colours back to your life. There is love. “

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” Colour Bender ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + SMC Pentax-F 50mm F2.8 Macro )

” The legend says, if you mix a number of correct colours you can get one wish, and it can be whatever you want. I have been mixing them for a while now, I have also wished for the same thing many times. See, the problem with my wish is that it may take years or even decades to find out, if it worked or not. I do not lose my hope though. What you see on the photograph here is my latest creation. A very rare arrangement of carefully selected coloured objects. If that didn’t work, I must have been really close with this one. The sun was shining just perfectly, giving it just right amount of little warm haze. The rays of the sun were piercing transparent plastic flesh with high precision, pushing beautiful saturated colours out of their physical form. A pinch of shadows here and there gave it a final touch. I am really impressed. There is something lacking here though, and I can’t pinpoint what it is. Maybe the blue is just not blue enough, hmm. Maybe the angle is not right, hmm let’s see… Oh fuck that plenty~!! I have been arranging some stupid plastic spoons and whatever that is with three pointy fucking things sticking out, moving left and right for more than an hour~!! Sweating my ass for what!? Some stupid thing that is not even real!? Eat it~!! “

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” Vegetable Guts ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + SMC Pentax-F 50mm F2.8 Macro )

” I keep going back and back thinking what is the best food for humans to eat. Should we even know the taste of animals’ meat? I don’t think we are predators, therefore we shouldn’t eat anything that has been killed by us. Just look at our body. We are not designed to kill, not really. We can create and make a great use of tools, but our body? I honestly don’t think nature wanted us to go after other animals. It’s weird… I have been enjoying and eating meat from the beginning of my life. Hmm… let me think. Vegetables, fruits and other things we can get from animals without hurting them; eggs, honey, milk etc., they are all packed with everything we need, and even more. So why do we kill and eat animals as well? Now that really has started me thinking. Can I do it? Can I really go on without any meat? At the moment my answer is; no I can’t. I mean, I don’t want to. Of course I could, if I wanted… But I most definitely will think about it in free time. What advantages it may have? Hmm I wonder. We don’t have big teeth, venom, claws etc., our biggest weapon is our brain. Theoretically speaking, we should have never started eating animals. That’s fucked up…I wonder if this thought will convert me into a vegetarian at some point. I don’t think so… maybe in the next life. But I do believe, eating other animals is a mistake. We are on top of the food chain, yet we behave like we are somewhere in a middle… Maybe we are… Maybe we are bred like hens and other animals, but for a different reason… The reason we have no idea about… Now that makes sense… “

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” Dragon Skin ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + SMC Pentax-F 50mm F2.8 Macro )

” Dragon Skin… Sometimes I think, the only way to stop life getting to you, is to grow dragon skin… So thick and so robust that even flaming hate and love could not get through it. This, or learn how to channel everything that’s harmful with such precision that nothing can really touch you. The latter is probably a better choice, but it’s much harder to achieve as well. Confusion and inability to understand morphs into hate… The skin starts glowing… No response and lack of caring changes hate into rage. The skin lights up… Past memories start bleeding once again. The skin is almost transparent, ready to burst with all might and fury… By the time everything spills over, you are all alone… there is no one there… not any more. It all disperses like a morning fog… All this building up, tension and accumulation of negativity, all for nothing… Waste of time and energy, pointless. Dragon skin would never let it happen. It’s too tough, way too smart to let such things glide through. Black tendons hold it all tight and secure. Glassy flesh will not let you see. Cold and solid, keeps secrets within its boundaries. You can spot life behind its fortification, bright and live, but you cannot get through… It’s way too scared, too fragile, and too soft to let anyone close again. It somehow wants to connect with you, lonely and hungry for another soul, but poor doesn’t know how to get through the very own wall, it once wanted so much to have around itself. Unfortunately trapped in its own shelter. It will take time, hard work and dedication on both sides, too finally free what has been buried so securely underneath dragon skin. Let’s just hope it will be worth the wait and struggle… “

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” Show-off ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + SMC Pentax-FA* 85mm F1.4 [IF] )

” I don’t know who was managing the sky that night, but I think we can agree that he went way too far with it this time. I mean it is not a fucking canvas, is it!?!… You can’t just paint some abnormal colours and smear them all over people’s head like that, it’s not normal~!! People are not used to see such wonderfulness. I understand that sunset should be spectacular from time to time, but this shit here could cause some serious problems, like; accidents, people trying to get on roofs to get a better view, cars stopping in a middle of a fucking road etc. I mean it’s a serious thing. You can’t just make such a display out of nowhere… No announcement, no previous signs that something like that will happen in future, nothing. Hell yea, let’s just flash that shit out of the blue and see those poor bastards’ reaction… I bet they will go nuts, thinking some kind of fucking apocalypse or aliens are coming. Whoever done this shit should get fired, and some kind of a grand art prize as well, because despite the possible problems it might cause, his work is just plain brilliant~!! Don’t get me wrong, it definitely should have not happened on the sky. It is not his private sheet of paper to doodle around. But yes, I have to agree… dude has got a serious talent. The thing is… people are not meant to see such joyful things. The life should be grey, boring and dark most of the time. People should focus on making money, breeding, thinking about buying another shit they don’t need, and definitely not thinking about beautiful things like that. It may cause them to slow down their lives and wonder; what is their real purpose of existence, why do they chase material things all the time, instead of enjoying simple and free pleasures, or even worse~!! They may even realise that their pathetic everyday and monotonous life is just a cover to propel our machine. We certainly do not want that to happen, do we? Okay… Maybe I was a little too harsh on this guy… I understand. He has a need to vent his artistic creativity somewhere. After all, everyone has got their personal needs, right? Maybe instead of sacking him, they should transfer him to the dream department. Yes, actually it’s a great idea. Move him exactly there. His skills should be perfectly suited to design nice, cosy and beautiful world that exists only in dreams. But in the real world? No fucking way~!! Remember, people are meant to move cogs and not admire what is behind the great curtain. We do not need anything that may cause their thinking go off the track, especially things like the FUCKING RAINBOWY SKY~!! Thanks god he didn’t add bloody flying unicorns to it… Any way, I think we are clear on that. Such pictures are only good for dreams. They make them get up in the morning and give necessary hope, that it will get better one day, but that’s it~!! We don’t actually want to give them what they want, it may fuck up their minds, it’s no good. Remember, just enough to keep them going and hoping for the better, all the way up until they drop dead. Understood!? Dismissed. “

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” Miscellaneous ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + SMC Pentax-FA 77mm F1.8 Limited )

” Beautiful interesting miscellaneous embedded in grey and boring matter. If I would be a child now again and saw this in real life, I would be planning and plotting immediately on extracting those gems. I remember when I was a kid, we used to hit similar wall with rocks and other things in order to get some nice pieces of it. There was this fountain located on a military premises, right next to a housing estate where my grandparents live (actually it was the special housing estate for military personnel families), and the wall circling it was made of concrete with embedded colourful glass. There were also three pyramid-like sculptures in the centre of the fountain which also had pieces of colourful glass in them. We used to sneak into military premises to reach this beautiful construction, and of course to get some of those precious jewels. Imagine a bunch of kids hitting old fountain with rocks, smashing it to pieces just to get some slivers of the coloured glass. It must have been such a joyful scene to witness. Of course we knew we are only children and even if soldiers would catch us, we would talked our way out of it. Obviously nobody in their right mind would like to find themselves in such scenario, so when someone spotted us, we ran away faster than wind. After some time, we have found even better spot than the fountain. It turned out, they were liquidating something we had no idea about, maybe another fountain, but there were huge piles of rubble, which also contained plenty of colourful glass that we were mining so persistently. Unfortunately my happiness didn’t last too long… After a few trips to our new discovered place, I cut my hand wide open with one of those precious treasures… it had to be stitched. As far as I remember that was my last journey there… So when I recently saw this little wall with colourful stuff in it, my mind went crazy and took me right back to those carefree times… I think the real fun had finished when we found plenty of what we were trying to get so hard. I think it is true with life in general. If you can get something easily, there is no much of a value to it… “

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” Amber Gem ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + SMC Pentax-FA 77mm F1.8 Limited )

” I had found this amber gem a few minutes before it started to rain. Dark and ominous clouds covered the sky, and just when I was rounding the last block of flats, I found it. I wasn’t sure about it at first… But now, I am glad I had taken out my camera and captured it. There is something about it. The simplicity perhaps? Or the colours? Hmm… maybe the texture of the wall? I don’t know… And even though I am not sure what’s so special about it… I undoubtedly and honestly like it. It is my precious gem. Caught right in the last moment, before everything turned grey. The light itself looks like a little sun, captured in a glass shell. You can almost feel its warmth on your face when you look at it. Liquid magma contained in a carefully polished jewel. My precious treasure… you’re mine now. I keep starring at it, wishing my eyes could see more. Something magnificent has been captured here. I truly cannot get enough of it… but why?~! It is just an ordinary lamp on a building. I love it… I love it so much, and I don’t even know why… I guess it is yet another irony of life. Sometimes you just feel it… There are no words to describe it, nor logical explanation. You just know. You know it’s real and genuine… You can feel it deep down in yourself, living a separate life from your own… Unbiased and far away from any false influence. It just is… “

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” Unreal Dweller Box ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + Samyang 8mm F3.5 Fisheye CS II )

” I look at it and it feels unreal… I know it’s real. I stand right in front of it… I can touch it, lick it, interact with it in a hundred different ways, but it still looks like something painted just for my eyes. Is it the composition that pushes it into something too beautiful to be real, or is it the mixture of bright colours you don’t normally see in places like this? Perhaps both things. A simple block of flats, yet all my senses are tingling, telling me; this is it Chan, take out your camera and capture the living hell out of it before it’s too late. God damn it… I really love those buildings, you know… They contain so many lives, so much love, hate, happiness, problems and so much more… My second wish, if I ever had three of them, would be living in a different flat every few days/weeks/months. I would love to look at people’s life, be a part of their daily ups and downs, and when finally bored… just move into another one to experience something different, or the same, but with different people. They remind me of a chocolate box. You know what to expect more or less, but you will never know for sure, until you look inside of it. Every single window hides another secret. Every room filled with something different. Personal memories, preferences, echoes of shared moments and history. So many things to look at, even more to talk about. What a treasure box… “

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” Questioning ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + Samyang 8mm F3.5 Fisheye CS II )

” Have you ever wondered if our fate is a reflection of our past or future deeds? What if what we did in the past, is the outcome of what happens now? What if the things that happen now, are the reversed echoes of what we will do in the future? When we are young, we tend to ask lots of questions connected with the reality we perceive. Once we grow older and feast our eyes long enough, we start asking questions about things that are beyond our sight. Let us take this another step forward… What if our life is the balance of the previous one? The total opposite, the sum that brings everything to a perfect equilibrium… all that just to turn everything upside down… once again, in a while. You have got to be careful about this, if you are not… You may find yourself strapped to a chair, doing nothing but trying to answer a downpour of questions without real answers. We are not designed to breach boundaries and go beyond our capabilities of understanding things we shouldn’t have known about. Once you start asking the wrong questions, looking what is hiding behind the blueprint of the life, you will get caught. You will find yourself in a room without the exit. The only way out of that place, will be a dark tunnel, filled with everything you are and always were afraid of. You can choose to descent into it and face your nightmares, or you can stay locked inside of it, for the rest of your life… trying to solve the puzzle, which is clearly missing a few crucial pieces. “

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