” Spiky Greens ” by tgchan ( Sony A6500 + Sony Zeiss 24mm f/1.8 )

I always knew… I have always known what I want in life… I was sure and confident about it as well… I don’t know what happened, I mean I know… but it is too hard for me to believe it. It scares me because I know it’s true, and I don’t know the way out of it now… I have set myself on the path that was not designed for me at all… I have triggered the bomb, and I don’t know how to stop the countdown. Piece by piece, life is stripping me of what I have known… Leaving me with nothing but darkness and chaos in my mind. I don’t know what I want any more, what is even worse; I feel like the things I have always loved doing are leaving me as well… All my pillars of existence are crumbling underneath the weight of emptiness. I just don’t know any more… I feel like those spiky greens shivering and trembling in the wind, unconsciously waiting to be finally knock down from their highest point in life…

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” Juiced Out ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + SMC Pentax-FA* 85mm F1.4 [IF] )

” Fruits, a close relatives of vegetables. When you think about the first ones, it’s hard not to think about the second, and the other way around. They are like yin and yang. Vegetables are still quite a mystery to me, but fruits, I believe I have them figured out. Do you know why they are so sweet, delicious and fun to eat? Well, their sole existence reason is to travel, spread across the lands and to guarantee survival of its species. Though, I still do not understand why and how fruits without pits, stones, pips and seeds work in general. I mean if they do not contain them, they kind of invalidate my theory and conception of their existence. Maybe they are only decoys, I don’t know. All seeds are designed to withstand stomach acid, in fact, it prepares them to begin a new life somewhere else once they are pooed out. This is why they look and taste so nice. They are meant to be seen from far, draw our attention with their bright colours, sweet taste and interesting looks. Vegetables on the other hand, well… they taste just okay, do not have vibrant colours; not that it matters a lot since most of them live underground any way, and they are just meh in general. So what do they have so special? Well, I like to call them vitamin bombs. The name itself is self-explanatory, so there is no need to write more about it. I don’t know their purpose of existence just yet, but I believe the nature had to balance them out somehow. Since they are not as attractive as fruits are, perhaps they are packed with lots of good things. I mean, this is what I believe, and it helps me greatly to enjoy eating them even more. Going back to fruit, I freaking love them after a hard physical training~!! There is nothing better to eat right after a gruesome workout. They are juicy, healthy, come with vitamins, and there is something primal and straightforward about it that I like a lot. Thank you for being fruits~!! “

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” Happiness Is The Sun ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + Samyang 8mm F3.5 Fisheye CS II )

” Sun… so bright, so warm, so happy… Every time it goes down, I want to chase it, and don’t let it drown in horizon. The moment when it goes behind trees and buildings, I can feel the darkness grabbing my shoulders and pulling me down. Even so far away, it is still one of the most important things in our lives. Everything looks so alive and wonderful when it shines. It is not only the sun though. On its own, it is just a bright hot star. Our world in connection with the nature… Our bad with its good, all mixed up. This is what gives such fascinating spectacle. The sick combination of synthetic and natural world. Our human arrogance embedded in the place we do not deserve. There are so many different kinds of pleasure in life… Admiration for what surrounds us, must be one of the most satisfying one, and it doesn’t cost much. Look around, appreciate what you see, hear, feel and taste. Sun… it certainly can make ordinary places look like they come from a fairy tale, don’t you agree? “

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” Good Afternoon Mr Tree ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + Samyang 8mm F3.5 Fisheye CS II )

” Good afternoon to you too, Mr Tree. How are you doing on this fine day? Good to hear, sir… good to hear. Oh, me? I am just fine, thank you. It is such a wonderful weather today, isn’t it? Yes, I completely agree. It really looks like a perfect day, doesn’t it? All those snowy white, puffy clouds in the blue sky, and this refreshing breeze… It is absolutely marvellous. Dear sir, would you mind if I took a photograph of you and these charming surroundings? No… No, not at all. You will fit just perfectly, worry not, sir. A little to the right, please. Hold it! Hold it… Got it~!! Now, that is going to be extraordinary once I return home and develop it, I can feel it. What the f… who the hell was I talking to!? A tree!? I am losing it… I am losing it again, what am I doing… She really crashed us, didn’t she… Way too fast chan… way too fast. We have totally lost the ground under our feet, haven’t we? You should have known better… fast changes are never good, they never are. One thing I will never understand though… How in the hell did she manage to break something already so broken, even more… how? It’s beyond me. Does it mean… I wasn’t broken before? Hmm, doesn’t matter. This tree… it bends like my reality… trying to reach the impossible. Are the things we always wanted really impossible, or are we making them that way? What is really stopping us from what we want in life? Is it reality… or what we create ourselves? The mush of loneliness, doubt, lack of entertainment, sense of direction and happiness, all this… at the same time. Such a bad timing Mr Chan, poor planning, too much emotions… too much of everything. I need my way of life back, my philosophy and beliefs, I need it all back. I don’t want to go back to the same place though, no. I need something different, I need to give myself a chance for something new, I need to know for sure. I can almost hear the voice telling me… Do not try and bend the tree. That’s impossible. Instead… only try to realise the truth. What truth? There is no tree. Then you’ll see, that it is not the tree that bends, it is only yourself. “

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” Wheels Of Happiness ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + SMC Pentax-FA 77mm F1.8 Limited )

” I need that car… I need it now real bad… I have to quickly drive away from this world, before it alone will drive me mad. I need to go back to a place where I meant something, the air I was breathing in was not poison, and the life I was living had more than two colours available. I have got plenty of fuel for what I need, well refined from all the burnt dreams over the years. Will I have got enough courage to grab the steering wheel and control the course of my destination? I have to… That cannot be another wasted opportunity to finally go flat out with everything I have been holding back for so long… I can’t afford it, not any more… A colourful vehicle, a time machine from the better times, a vessel that may bring what has been once lost and left behind in the past… A hope? Maybe. So it’s there… hidden somewhere beneath the complexity of human subconscious, buried in thoughts of the present, surrounded by ugliness and decay of yesterday… but it’s there… and it’s waiting to be found. Don’t stop, not now, not tomorrow. You are closer than you may think. Look for the clues, remember what you have been always doing, what has always been a part of you. Do not abandon your instinct, it’s the only compass you can trust. Now, can I? The best things happened because I have ignored what you have been telling me, but again… They have also brought the worst things… Maybe… maybe you are right. Maybe I should have never abandoned you, maybe there is something meaningful at the end. All that pain and suffering can’t be for nothing, right? It has to have some kind of gratification to even things out. Maybe if I had listened to you before, I wouldn’t have been thinking in circles now… That stupid venomous mistake… what was I thinking… I should have never come out of my world. What the hell was I thinking… that I could be like others? That I could do things like everyone else does? Stupid… Forget it. Get the fucking car and be done with it, never stop afterwards. Not for anything, not for anyone. They can jump right in, but there will be no stops. You have been standing in one place long enough. “

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” Seductive Sticks ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + SMC Pentax-FA 77mm F1.8 Limited )

” Flowers… what an amazing example of pure beauty and careful craftsmanship. So innocent, colourful, fragile and seductive… no wonder all bees go crazy about them. I also think, I know why women love them so much… They are not so different from them after all, are they? The thing is, even the most astonishing flower, will never look good, if there is no light shining upon it. Some women are incredibly beautiful… yet they don’t feel that way, because they are living in a shade of other things. All those sensual petals, colourful details and unforgettable scent… All this, just for one reason and one reason alone… A clever programming that keeps everything in check, in perfect order and harmony. A flawless system that keeps the wheel of evolution spinning and spinning. Is breeding really the only thing that keeps us living and dreaming? Do we really share a life of an ordinary bee, looking for our perfect flower, before it gets all wrinkled up and rot away? Do we really have a choice in all this? Was it ever an option? “

 

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” Different Level ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-50 + HD Pentax-DA 35mm F2.8 Limited Macro )

” Still beautiful, still colourful and perfectly usable, yet… already cast away. It used to be so high, dancing on wind above everything else, singing with birds and looking at the best sunrises and sunsets his entire life. What happened? What might have he done to deserve such punishment? No more saying hi to white billowy clouds, no more waving to rising Sun and birds flying by, no more looking at the horizon and what it might bring, it is over… Lying in dirt, surrounded with this green and boring bunch… Why oh why do I deserve such a punch!? Ants, worms, puddles and occasional dog pooh! This is ridiculous~! I protest on the hoof~! I do not agree with all that crap. There is no way my mind can withstand all that… Help me before I lose myself… to the point of not coming back. But… to whom am I going to cry it all about? Who will listen to all my quandaries and problems… There is nobody… Time to see the life from a different level… Wait a second… What is this light? How magnificently bright! Look at those colours and shadows, aren’t they marvellous!? Listen, can you hear the music? What is this sorcery? Where is it coming from? How beautiful… Maybe it is not so bad as I thought it was… The smell… so nice and refreshing… God damn… Am I in heaven? I think I am, and to think that I thought I will vanish in this place… I guess, everything depends on how you look at things… or maybe… How long can you last, before you see the light… “

 

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” Solar Panels ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-50 + HD Pentax-DA 35mm F2.8 Limited Macro )

” Yet another human invention that is based on something that nature had done million… if not billion years ago. We are getting quite good at copying the master, but still… we have a long long way ahead of us, before we reach this level of advancement. I mean, just look at it… non-toxic, compact, recyclable, efficient, adaptable great looking and multi-purpose machine, that not only utilises waste, but also produces the life giving products… how can we ever match that superb kind of technology. It feels like the nature has scattered all her greatest blueprints around us, in hope that one day, we will be able to notice them and make use of it. The more I think about it, the more I am afraid of our ignorance. Did the nature let us play in her backyard with our primitive toys, just to learn and look up to her creations? Are we up to the task? Will we ever get smart enough to significantly replicate her steps? How much time have we got, before she will throw us out for wasting her time and resources? Heh… little green leaves that nobody sees, flapping in the wind… Still far superior and more advanced than anything we have ever created… “

 

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” Curtain ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-50 + HD Pentax-DA 35mm F2.8 Limited Macro )

” After deleting dozens of potential photographs, I have realised how hard it is to find and capture something special. Not that I didn’t know about it, but this time… it hit me really hard. I had deleted more than two hundred files before I found something I could start working with. Wrong angle, too dark, too bright, too low, too high, blurry subject, boring subject etc. Even if everything else is good, sometimes you just cannot get that magic out of it. That something special you have experienced in person, at that particular moment, it is just not there anymore. I can’t say I have wasted my time and money though, I really enjoy my journeys. I am just a little sad, that after so many hours and kilometres, I came back home empty-handed. I should probably stop worrying about the past, unless I have a time machine. I am truly glad, that this green curtain was still there to save my evening, I was really losing my last bits of hope. I would love to go out and hunt for some more treasure, but the current weather is just plain wrong. It supposed to be winter now, but it looks like we have a dark, muddy and gloomy autumn instead. Oh well, I can still enjoy a beautiful sunny weather through my window, with a green leafy curtain… “

 

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” Changes ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-50 + HD Pentax-DA 35mm F2.8 Limited Macro )

” Changes… even when they are bad, they are still good. It is something we need in order to evolve, learn and be. It doesn’t matter if we are the ones making them, the life goes on, and it constantly morphs into something new. There are no permanent things. Something that was blue once, might be yellow soon, just to change into green later on. We cannot expect to last forever, nothing ever does… All those changes give us a clear idea about one thing, there is something after death, and we don’t need any religion to tell us about it. Our lives have been changing with the very moment of our existence. We cannot escape it, nor avoid it… What we can, is to use it to our advantage, make the best of it. Nothing is ever lost, just like nothing is ever sure… “

 

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