” Handsome Fellow ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + SMC Pentax-FA 31mm F1.8 AL Limited )

” A Handsome Fellow waiting for his new girl outside her home. This is the first time they are going to see each other in person. They have known each other for more than a year but they have never met in real life before. He is very calm on the outside but a little bit stressed on the inside. He wants to make a nice first impression after all. It is somewhat funny. They both know exactly who they are going to meet, but it is still so exciting and somehow enigmatic. He has an intention of making this meeting a very special one. A highly sophisticated list of things to do together is charmingly troubling his soft mind. He wasn’t too nice for her many times in past. Not that he didn’t like her, but to keep distance and to keep his head clear. After so much wasted time, so many nice opportunities missed, he finally decided to gave it a shot. Despite all the negative things and the lack of mutual interests, he can’t be sure that she is not meant for him. She’s won. She will finally learn the truth the hard way. It should be such a nice journey, the weather is just right. Not too hot, not too cold. Wind present, but not pushy. And clouds… the clouds are surely magnificent today; big, heavy and so billowy… just the way he loves them. He’s afraid. He’s frightened to the bone of not being good enough once again. He’s scared of wasting what’s left of his emotions on the wrong person. How can she be the right one? She looks okay, she’s quite smart too, but what about some crucial things like passion, mutual things they would both like. There are literally no things that would hold them together except for fucking… and that… you can find just anywhere… Oh dear… he’s hesitating again. Torn apart between what he thinks is right and what if he is mistaken… He needs that hug so much, but what if it is just another trap… What if it will only hurt him and force to leave another piece of his heart in the wrong place… He whispers: ” She isn’t real, I can’t make her real… ” He turns around and walks away, repeating ” She isn’t real, there’s no one for me here… ” “

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” I Miss You ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + SMC Pentax-F 50mm F2.8 Macro )

” I don’t know where you are… I don’t even know how you look like… but I miss you… I miss being with you so much… I know you are out there… somewhere… and I am scared… I am so damn scared that we may never have a chance to meet each other. It’s unsettling… Have we already met? Is life playing with us? I can feel, you might be my key to everything. I miss you… I yearn for you… but I don’t even know if I could really live with you… Maybe this is why we have not met each other… maybe I am just not ready yet. Doesn’t matter. I just wanted you to know that I am thinking about you, and I really miss you. One thing I am certain though… If I am not able to give you what is required for your long term happiness… I would rather never see you. I do not want to be your disappointment. I would rather chase a ghost my entire life, rather than being with you, and knowing that I cannot change your life for the better. My inner self is torn apart… I don’t even know what I want any more. I mean, I know… but I also know that the things I want come at price. Actually no… they may come at certain price with the wrong kind of girl, but theoretically speaking, not with you. This is why I want YOU~!! and no one else. I am tired… it’s late. I have to go sleep. I really can’t wait for our first journey… a long drive, hours of walking and exploring, looking at the beautiful world shining in the sun, a delicate breeze… It can’t be just dreams… it feels too real, too vivid and too close… Good night my love, wherever you are… “

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” Show-off ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + SMC Pentax-FA* 85mm F1.4 [IF] )

” I don’t know who was managing the sky that night, but I think we can agree that he went way too far with it this time. I mean it is not a fucking canvas, is it!?!… You can’t just paint some abnormal colours and smear them all over people’s head like that, it’s not normal~!! People are not used to see such wonderfulness. I understand that sunset should be spectacular from time to time, but this shit here could cause some serious problems, like; accidents, people trying to get on roofs to get a better view, cars stopping in a middle of a fucking road etc. I mean it’s a serious thing. You can’t just make such a display out of nowhere… No announcement, no previous signs that something like that will happen in future, nothing. Hell yea, let’s just flash that shit out of the blue and see those poor bastards’ reaction… I bet they will go nuts, thinking some kind of fucking apocalypse or aliens are coming. Whoever done this shit should get fired, and some kind of a grand art prize as well, because despite the possible problems it might cause, his work is just plain brilliant~!! Don’t get me wrong, it definitely should have not happened on the sky. It is not his private sheet of paper to doodle around. But yes, I have to agree… dude has got a serious talent. The thing is… people are not meant to see such joyful things. The life should be grey, boring and dark most of the time. People should focus on making money, breeding, thinking about buying another shit they don’t need, and definitely not thinking about beautiful things like that. It may cause them to slow down their lives and wonder; what is their real purpose of existence, why do they chase material things all the time, instead of enjoying simple and free pleasures, or even worse~!! They may even realise that their pathetic everyday and monotonous life is just a cover to propel our machine. We certainly do not want that to happen, do we? Okay… Maybe I was a little too harsh on this guy… I understand. He has a need to vent his artistic creativity somewhere. After all, everyone has got their personal needs, right? Maybe instead of sacking him, they should transfer him to the dream department. Yes, actually it’s a great idea. Move him exactly there. His skills should be perfectly suited to design nice, cosy and beautiful world that exists only in dreams. But in the real world? No fucking way~!! Remember, people are meant to move cogs and not admire what is behind the great curtain. We do not need anything that may cause their thinking go off the track, especially things like the FUCKING RAINBOWY SKY~!! Thanks god he didn’t add bloody flying unicorns to it… Any way, I think we are clear on that. Such pictures are only good for dreams. They make them get up in the morning and give necessary hope, that it will get better one day, but that’s it~!! We don’t actually want to give them what they want, it may fuck up their minds, it’s no good. Remember, just enough to keep them going and hoping for the better, all the way up until they drop dead. Understood!? Dismissed. “

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” Not Enough ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + SMC Pentax-FA 31mm F1.8 AL Limited )

” My 200th upload… why not make it special, huh? You most definitely were, so it should go all nicely with the rest of it. I know you have always wanted me to dedicate one of my work and description just to you, so here it is… finally. We have never had a chance for a real goodbye, have we? I know… it was partially my fault, I admit it. I just couldn’t be there with you knowing that you are looking for someone else to replace me with. I couldn’t bear it, I had to remove myself from your life. See, I can be confident and decisive in my choices, just not where everyone else is… You once asked me, what do I love the most about you, and I didn’t want to tell you at that time, but now… well, it doesn’t exist any more. It is quite simple you see… The way you cared about me, constantly fighting and never losing faith in me, was the thing that I loved the most about you. Of course, there is so much more, but this single idea, that I am so important and special to you, was the beginning of everything for me. I thought, if I am so important to her, and she is willing to do so much for me… she deserves everything I have to offer. I had so little… but it was enough for you to stay, you kept believing in me. My whole life, was just me alone really… I have never thought I would meet someone like you. I dreamt about it… but we all know that dream world and the reality are two things that rarely coexist together. Everything I have designed and shaped into, was completely opposite to what you needed and hoped for. Your big plans about the family and everything else… You never gave up on them, did you? Not until the very end of it… You really thought you will change my mind eventually… It looks like we have both disappointed each other… It is quite ironic though, don’t you think ? Everything you wished for, eventually came true… I guess we will never find out about the rest now. I used to know things, I was sure of them and confident about my life philosophy… Now, I can’t even trust my own thoughts. It feels like I am surrounded by a crowd of traitors, not knowing who will stab me first. Do I want to bring you back? No. I mean, I don’t fucking know okay… Do you want to suffer? Come and join the party. I count days on which I am not crying thinking about you. My record is five days in a row so far, but I got tired holding it all back after a while, so I am back at one again. Do you want to have a nice family and be happy? STAY THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME. You once said that I can’t stop thinking about you because I have no life… ouch… it is okay though, it is partially true. My life was always simple, but I have never had trouble filling my free time, never. See, the thing is… you became my life, and I didn’t want to do anything without you. I have been trying to shut my old life down in order to learn and share the new one just with you. The hole you have left in my life is something you cannot really fix. I have been circling round it, looking at it and trying to find some answers, make sense of it or just simply understand it, but the only thing I have got from doing so, is even more questions and pain. I am trying to sit on the edge of what is left of my life, but I find myself constantly falling back into the black abyss of sorrow. I really hate waking up in the mornings now you know… everything feels so empty without you. I hate the moments when my family asks about you as well… I squeeze my fists, trying not to burst into tears, and try to change the subject as fast as I can, before the emotions get the best of me. Sometimes I find peace of mind by looking at myself in a mirror… I say, wow… what a miserable fuck you are, and I feel better that you are gone… you deserve so much more. Hopefully you will never look back, not this time. I just wanted you to know that I have never resigned from you, I have just lost with my biggest enemy, myself. You are a part of me know, you will always be. I am so sorry I was not enough of who you wanted me to be… I really am. Heh funny… I still cannot breathe when I think about you. I will never understand how could I let you go… it doesn’t make sense. All this talking and being honest with each other didn’t really help much after all… heh, it’s sad. I wanted us to be so different, I thought I have it all figured out… I really believed that. So this is it, I guess… You are another exhibit in my museum of unfulfilled dreams now… the place where I have never wanted you to be. I …. ….. … .. ……. …. Zmijka… I really did. \o/ “

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” Out Of Place ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + SMC Pentax-FA 77mm F1.8 Limited )

” Poor little thing… It has been looking for its place for so long… so hard too. After years of fruitless wanders, it had finally resigned and let all what was left from its hope go. There was no point holding on to it any more, the fight was over, a loss without much pain. In the long run, it finally got used to its sub-dreamed life, and I even dare to say… it was quite happy for a while. The small but important part was still missing, but it was okay, it wasn’t so bad, it could live without it. One day, totally out of the blue, this great opportunity came along, out of nowhere, really… It was persistent, believable, full of energy and faith… It was fighting so fiercely, with so much heart and passion… Eventually, it gave it a chance… nobody has ever made it feel so special before after all… It was the best thing that has ever happened to the poor thing. Unfortunately, everything beautiful that has come with the opportunity, has also dragged everything out that’s ugly from the poor bastard. It has faced challenges it has never even dreamt about, and even though it tried its best to cooperate with all of them… Ultimately, it has failed to win the most important ones. The beautiful opportunity has decided to walk away at the end of the day, and the poor thing… Well, with its life half-changed for something greater that has never come… it has been left hanging… slightly out of place. The old wall is no more, and the new one… may never come. It feels uncomfortable, cold and lonely. I guess it’s all what it has got now… Another loss, dead end, defeat… this time bloody painful. “

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” Ladies In Red ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + SMC Pentax-FA 77mm F1.8 Limited )

” Ah… Ladies in Red… Look at those beauties, such a fine specimen… So young and smooth… sunbathing in early warm summer rays of sunshine. There are so many… which one of them should I choose… or maybe I alone have been already chosen by one, who knows? How can I know for sure, which is a good choice for me? Should I pick the youngest? Perhaps I should choose the one that is the closest to me and within my reach? Am I being lazy and convenient here? I shall not ignore those far away, especially the one that keeps looking at me at all time. Who the hell am I to choose between those angels anyway!? Look at me… No past nor future whatsoever, a messy present and no idea about tomorrow, that’s all I’ve got to offer. So many liars, even more lies floating through my mind… Chaos, deception, laziness and betrayal from within… treacherous thoughts polluting and blurring vivid lines I have previously drawn so confidently, so true… Focus~! Stop looking at them all. There’s only one, look at her… she’s still fighting for you… or is she? What is she fighting for really? Fear… Is it an ambush or is it a genuine thing? Who on planet Earth is pulling who into a trap!? No, no, NO~! Stop with the negative thoughts again, focus~! Let’s go back to the beginning… where was I? Ah, beautiful Ladies in Red… so many of them, all beautiful and attractive… constantly tempting and enchanting. Those soft petals… good god~! Dancing so gracefully and moving like magic. Do we really have a choice here? Was it ever our decision to make? Is there a way out of it? Can I go back? Is it too late to undo everything that has been done? If I only knew… If I only fucking new… I would never ever lay my eyes on her. I would never let her waste her time on me. Why do I have to be her mistake, burden and disappointment… I’ve never wanted to, I didn’t know… I just couldn’t know… Look at them smiling at you… Are they already laughing? Everyone wants to be happy, feel special to someone, care and be cared about… Is it a game? Is it really just a bloody game…? I’m tired, confused and resigned… Sorry ladies, it looks like I’ve lost my way again… not to mention the appetite. Cheerio~! “

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” Love Is A Bubble ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + SMC Pentax-FA 77mm F1.8 Limited )

” So what is love exactly? It’s a trap among many other things, that’s for sure. You either destroy it at its infancy, or you get trapped inside of it. It comes in various shapes and colours, luring you slowly yet firmly. Once it gets hooks in your heart, there is no escape from it. At least, not without ripping and leaving a great chunk of your own flesh behind. So what is this infernal tool, why does it even exist? What is its purpose? Well folks, it is nature’s plan B or A, depends on what works and what doesn’t in particular case. You can escape one, but the second thing will most likely get you anyway. Some people only chase bodily pleasures, others seek a twin soul, and some are in search for those both things at the same time. It is a fragile creation… nonetheless, utmost dangerous. Many people are designed to coop with it, without any major malfunctions. There are also those who are missing some important data, and are not able to assimilate it properly. Those poor souls are exposed to extreme confusion, pain and feelings that erode their minds inexorably, killing them slowly and silently from the inside. A trap that can ruin ongoing existence, or give the meaning to an empty life. It is quite unfair how it works though. It hits directly at your weakest points, leaving you vulnerable and open to attacks from people with malicious and selfish intentions. So what is love exactly? The answer to the question is quite simple… It’s a death. The death of the person you have known your entire life. “

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” The Child’s View ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + SMC Pentax-FA 77mm F1.8 Limited )

Original Street Artist: Anna Matuszewska in association with Galeria Sztuki 58, Radom.

” It is quite fascinating how children’s eyes see the world. It doesn’t matter if they are living in a dream place or just in a poor and grey tenement, their world is still much more colourful than ours. No matter what happens around them, their reality stays pure and innocent. They don’t see things, the way we do. Their lack of sophisticated thinking, and not overthinking things, makes them genuine, frank and transparent in their doings. They don’t worry about the past, the future or even the present… They say and do what they feel and want. Their mind is free, light and focused on the essence of life. They do not limit themselves to the world they are living in, they create their own. The head full of dreams, ideas and a vision that the whole universe is just a giant playground. Unfortunately, somewhere along the way, we start losing this unique ability. Day after day, our mind is getting polluted more and more, our vision blurred and senses mutilated… Soon, we are all stripped-down, left with some single hopes to live on… “

 

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” Seductive Sticks ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + SMC Pentax-FA 77mm F1.8 Limited )

” Flowers… what an amazing example of pure beauty and careful craftsmanship. So innocent, colourful, fragile and seductive… no wonder all bees go crazy about them. I also think, I know why women love them so much… They are not so different from them after all, are they? The thing is, even the most astonishing flower, will never look good, if there is no light shining upon it. Some women are incredibly beautiful… yet they don’t feel that way, because they are living in a shade of other things. All those sensual petals, colourful details and unforgettable scent… All this, just for one reason and one reason alone… A clever programming that keeps everything in check, in perfect order and harmony. A flawless system that keeps the wheel of evolution spinning and spinning. Is breeding really the only thing that keeps us living and dreaming? Do we really share a life of an ordinary bee, looking for our perfect flower, before it gets all wrinkled up and rot away? Do we really have a choice in all this? Was it ever an option? “

 

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” Grounded ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-50 + HD Pentax-DA 35mm F2.8 Limited Macro )

” Beauty and the Beast, king of the sky, fearless conqueror of the whitest clouds… Forever grounded, revoked, left behind… Looking proudly, far above, reminiscing about the old days of glory and love. Living in past, choking back tears while looking at youngsters jetting around, poor soul… It would give everything just to feel refreshing breeze in its nose again, one touch of the white billowy clouds, one last dive before everything goes dark… In vain, dreaming about the things that cause unbearable pain. It’s better not to think about it, forget, focus on the new things, it could have been much worse… At least, you can still look at the blue sky, not like those poor souls locked in hangars and museums, stripped from wings and engines. Cherish the moment, forget about the painful past, look in the future and see the stars. ”

 

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