” Spiky Greens ” by tgchan ( Sony A6500 + Sony Zeiss 24mm f/1.8 )

I always knew… I have always known what I want in life… I was sure and confident about it as well… I don’t know what happened, I mean I know… but it is too hard for me to believe it. It scares me because I know it’s true, and I don’t know the way out of it now… I have set myself on the path that was not designed for me at all… I have triggered the bomb, and I don’t know how to stop the countdown. Piece by piece, life is stripping me of what I have known… Leaving me with nothing but darkness and chaos in my mind. I don’t know what I want any more, what is even worse; I feel like the things I have always loved doing are leaving me as well… All my pillars of existence are crumbling underneath the weight of emptiness. I just don’t know any more… I feel like those spiky greens shivering and trembling in the wind, unconsciously waiting to be finally knock down from their highest point in life…

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” Handsome Fellow ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + SMC Pentax-FA 31mm F1.8 AL Limited )

” A Handsome Fellow waiting for his new girl outside her home. This is the first time they are going to see each other in person. They have known each other for more than a year but they have never met in real life before. He is very calm on the outside but a little bit stressed on the inside. He wants to make a nice first impression after all. It is somewhat funny. They both know exactly who they are going to meet, but it is still so exciting and somehow enigmatic. He has an intention of making this meeting a very special one. A highly sophisticated list of things to do together is charmingly troubling his soft mind. He wasn’t too nice for her many times in past. Not that he didn’t like her, but to keep distance and to keep his head clear. After so much wasted time, so many nice opportunities missed, he finally decided to gave it a shot. Despite all the negative things and the lack of mutual interests, he can’t be sure that she is not meant for him. She’s won. She will finally learn the truth the hard way. It should be such a nice journey, the weather is just right. Not too hot, not too cold. Wind present, but not pushy. And clouds… the clouds are surely magnificent today; big, heavy and so billowy… just the way he loves them. He’s afraid. He’s frightened to the bone of not being good enough once again. He’s scared of wasting what’s left of his emotions on the wrong person. How can she be the right one? She looks okay, she’s quite smart too, but what about some crucial things like passion, mutual things they would both like. There are literally no things that would hold them together except for fucking… and that… you can find just anywhere… Oh dear… he’s hesitating again. Torn apart between what he thinks is right and what if he is mistaken… He needs that hug so much, but what if it is just another trap… What if it will only hurt him and force to leave another piece of his heart in the wrong place… He whispers: ” She isn’t real, I can’t make her real… ” He turns around and walks away, repeating ” She isn’t real, there’s no one for me here… ” “

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” Terrestrial Sensors ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + SMC Pentax-FA 31mm F1.8 AL Limited )

” Dancing on the wind… Inertly bending in all directions… weak and powerless, nonetheless, very important. One of the many, terrestrial sensors, constantly gathering new information from the surface of our planet, sending it deep down to the core of the mainframe. They come in different shapes and sizes, but no one really knows how they differ in their functionality. Some people claim that gathered data from our lives is sent directly to the very main CPU. Next, translated and shaped accordingly to what our reality should look like. Funny tiny, fragile antennae if you ask me… and why the hell there are so many of them anyway? It looks like everything is hard-wired. So simple, yet so sophisticated. Can our straightforward thinking ever get us to the point where we fully understand what is going on around us? Is it even possible? Are we capable of such knowledge? Sick tired of all this thinking… I remember grabbing one of those funny wiggly antennae, and shouting straight into it; WHO THE HELL AM I and WHAT AM I DOING HERE~?!! ANSWER ME~!! Unfortunately, I have not received any answer to this day… Perhaps I have grabbed the faulty one… Perhaps, my message has been disrupted by all the rage in my tone? Or maybe I am just mad, and I have been talking to a piece of plant… “

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” Unreal Dweller Box ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + Samyang 8mm F3.5 Fisheye CS II )

” I look at it and it feels unreal… I know it’s real. I stand right in front of it… I can touch it, lick it, interact with it in a hundred different ways, but it still looks like something painted just for my eyes. Is it the composition that pushes it into something too beautiful to be real, or is it the mixture of bright colours you don’t normally see in places like this? Perhaps both things. A simple block of flats, yet all my senses are tingling, telling me; this is it Chan, take out your camera and capture the living hell out of it before it’s too late. God damn it… I really love those buildings, you know… They contain so many lives, so much love, hate, happiness, problems and so much more… My second wish, if I ever had three of them, would be living in a different flat every few days/weeks/months. I would love to look at people’s life, be a part of their daily ups and downs, and when finally bored… just move into another one to experience something different, or the same, but with different people. They remind me of a chocolate box. You know what to expect more or less, but you will never know for sure, until you look inside of it. Every single window hides another secret. Every room filled with something different. Personal memories, preferences, echoes of shared moments and history. So many things to look at, even more to talk about. What a treasure box… “

Art Prints

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” Super Cosy Spot ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + Samyang 8mm F3.5 Fisheye CS II )

” Not in direct sunlight but in shadows… not in complete darkness though, my sweet spot lies. Somewhere between those two… Somewhere close, so I can see the transition clearly and derive the best of both worlds. Once the light weakens, the shadow grows stronger, slowly devouring and conquering the lands that originally belonged to it. The war will be over soon enough, but the victory is not permanent, nothing ever is… What you take, must be eventually returned. The light still fights strong, bravely pushing darkness back to its black roots. Futile resistance, yet so noble and admirable. I stand there and observe two of the greatest powers duelling for domination, right in front of my eyes… Me, a mere mortal… and even though I know whose turn to win is this time, it’s still magnificent to be a witness of it. Besides, you can never be certain of anything. I can already feel the chills of darkness on my back, but my eyes are focused on warmth of the light in front of me. Beautiful… isn’t it? Now, the best thing is that I can start moving with the darkness, chasing the light and feel the power of the winner. If I choose to… I can step into the light, and start feeling the dread of annihilation, running away in fear. Everything changes… things once so obvious become mysterious. Familiar shapes start becoming unknown and ominous. Uncertainty… is it really the place where happiness dwells? Or is it the moment when you can choose between two things, but you have still not decided, draining positive energy from the both possible realities at the same time? You know you will have to decide what to choose eventually, losing one thing or another as a result of a decision, but you keep stalling the moment, enjoying the freedom of choice. Is it a freedom? Why do I have to choose? Can I choose not to choose? Where am I going with all this…? It doesn’t matter what hides underneath… Just enjoy it. The very same way, I have enjoyed being at my super cosy spot for that brief moment. “

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” Ladies In Red ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + SMC Pentax-FA 77mm F1.8 Limited )

” Ah… Ladies in Red… Look at those beauties, such a fine specimen… So young and smooth… sunbathing in early warm summer rays of sunshine. There are so many… which one of them should I choose… or maybe I alone have been already chosen by one, who knows? How can I know for sure, which is a good choice for me? Should I pick the youngest? Perhaps I should choose the one that is the closest to me and within my reach? Am I being lazy and convenient here? I shall not ignore those far away, especially the one that keeps looking at me at all time. Who the hell am I to choose between those angels anyway!? Look at me… No past nor future whatsoever, a messy present and no idea about tomorrow, that’s all I’ve got to offer. So many liars, even more lies floating through my mind… Chaos, deception, laziness and betrayal from within… treacherous thoughts polluting and blurring vivid lines I have previously drawn so confidently, so true… Focus~! Stop looking at them all. There’s only one, look at her… she’s still fighting for you… or is she? What is she fighting for really? Fear… Is it an ambush or is it a genuine thing? Who on planet Earth is pulling who into a trap!? No, no, NO~! Stop with the negative thoughts again, focus~! Let’s go back to the beginning… where was I? Ah, beautiful Ladies in Red… so many of them, all beautiful and attractive… constantly tempting and enchanting. Those soft petals… good god~! Dancing so gracefully and moving like magic. Do we really have a choice here? Was it ever our decision to make? Is there a way out of it? Can I go back? Is it too late to undo everything that has been done? If I only knew… If I only fucking new… I would never ever lay my eyes on her. I would never let her waste her time on me. Why do I have to be her mistake, burden and disappointment… I’ve never wanted to, I didn’t know… I just couldn’t know… Look at them smiling at you… Are they already laughing? Everyone wants to be happy, feel special to someone, care and be cared about… Is it a game? Is it really just a bloody game…? I’m tired, confused and resigned… Sorry ladies, it looks like I’ve lost my way again… not to mention the appetite. Cheerio~! “

Art Prints

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” Seductive Sticks ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + SMC Pentax-FA 77mm F1.8 Limited )

” Flowers… what an amazing example of pure beauty and careful craftsmanship. So innocent, colourful, fragile and seductive… no wonder all bees go crazy about them. I also think, I know why women love them so much… They are not so different from them after all, are they? The thing is, even the most astonishing flower, will never look good, if there is no light shining upon it. Some women are incredibly beautiful… yet they don’t feel that way, because they are living in a shade of other things. All those sensual petals, colourful details and unforgettable scent… All this, just for one reason and one reason alone… A clever programming that keeps everything in check, in perfect order and harmony. A flawless system that keeps the wheel of evolution spinning and spinning. Is breeding really the only thing that keeps us living and dreaming? Do we really share a life of an ordinary bee, looking for our perfect flower, before it gets all wrinkled up and rot away? Do we really have a choice in all this? Was it ever an option? “

 

Art Prints

 

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” Different Level ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-50 + HD Pentax-DA 35mm F2.8 Limited Macro )

” Still beautiful, still colourful and perfectly usable, yet… already cast away. It used to be so high, dancing on wind above everything else, singing with birds and looking at the best sunrises and sunsets his entire life. What happened? What might have he done to deserve such punishment? No more saying hi to white billowy clouds, no more waving to rising Sun and birds flying by, no more looking at the horizon and what it might bring, it is over… Lying in dirt, surrounded with this green and boring bunch… Why oh why do I deserve such a punch!? Ants, worms, puddles and occasional dog pooh! This is ridiculous~! I protest on the hoof~! I do not agree with all that crap. There is no way my mind can withstand all that… Help me before I lose myself… to the point of not coming back. But… to whom am I going to cry it all about? Who will listen to all my quandaries and problems… There is nobody… Time to see the life from a different level… Wait a second… What is this light? How magnificently bright! Look at those colours and shadows, aren’t they marvellous!? Listen, can you hear the music? What is this sorcery? Where is it coming from? How beautiful… Maybe it is not so bad as I thought it was… The smell… so nice and refreshing… God damn… Am I in heaven? I think I am, and to think that I thought I will vanish in this place… I guess, everything depends on how you look at things… or maybe… How long can you last, before you see the light… “

 

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” Curtain ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-50 + HD Pentax-DA 35mm F2.8 Limited Macro )

” After deleting dozens of potential photographs, I have realised how hard it is to find and capture something special. Not that I didn’t know about it, but this time… it hit me really hard. I had deleted more than two hundred files before I found something I could start working with. Wrong angle, too dark, too bright, too low, too high, blurry subject, boring subject etc. Even if everything else is good, sometimes you just cannot get that magic out of it. That something special you have experienced in person, at that particular moment, it is just not there anymore. I can’t say I have wasted my time and money though, I really enjoy my journeys. I am just a little sad, that after so many hours and kilometres, I came back home empty-handed. I should probably stop worrying about the past, unless I have a time machine. I am truly glad, that this green curtain was still there to save my evening, I was really losing my last bits of hope. I would love to go out and hunt for some more treasure, but the current weather is just plain wrong. It supposed to be winter now, but it looks like we have a dark, muddy and gloomy autumn instead. Oh well, I can still enjoy a beautiful sunny weather through my window, with a green leafy curtain… “

 

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” Archangel ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-50 + HD Pentax-DA 35mm F2.8 Limited Macro )

” Good versus Evil… neither first nor second, can exist without each other. It is a common misbelief, that those two extremities are in constant war for a domination, nothing more misleading… they complete one another. We would never know what good is, not without evil. The evil would be meaningless, if there wouldn’t be good. People often think, they have to pick only one side and stick with it, but they forget about the most important thing in all this… the balance. It let us use the strength of the both sides without unnecessary limitations. This is the most desirable place we should aim at, it is also the hardest to achieve. Michael the archangel, the leader of God’s armies, the defender of all that is pure, the supreme protector… Who are you fighting? Don’t you know, that the one who sent you… is the one you are after… ? “

 

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