” Handsome Fellow ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + SMC Pentax-FA 31mm F1.8 AL Limited )

” A Handsome Fellow waiting for his new girl outside her home. This is the first time they are going to see each other in person. They have known each other for more than a year but they have never met in real life before. He is very calm on the outside but a little bit stressed on the inside. He wants to make a nice first impression after all. It is somewhat funny. They both know exactly who they are going to meet, but it is still so exciting and somehow enigmatic. He has an intention of making this meeting a very special one. A highly sophisticated list of things to do together is charmingly troubling his soft mind. He wasn’t too nice for her many times in past. Not that he didn’t like her, but to keep distance and to keep his head clear. After so much wasted time, so many nice opportunities missed, he finally decided to gave it a shot. Despite all the negative things and the lack of mutual interests, he can’t be sure that she is not meant for him. She’s won. She will finally learn the truth the hard way. It should be such a nice journey, the weather is just right. Not too hot, not too cold. Wind present, but not pushy. And clouds… the clouds are surely magnificent today; big, heavy and so billowy… just the way he loves them. He’s afraid. He’s frightened to the bone of not being good enough once again. He’s scared of wasting what’s left of his emotions on the wrong person. How can she be the right one? She looks okay, she’s quite smart too, but what about some crucial things like passion, mutual things they would both like. There are literally no things that would hold them together except for fucking… and that… you can find just anywhere… Oh dear… he’s hesitating again. Torn apart between what he thinks is right and what if he is mistaken… He needs that hug so much, but what if it is just another trap… What if it will only hurt him and force to leave another piece of his heart in the wrong place… He whispers: ” She isn’t real, I can’t make her real… ” He turns around and walks away, repeating ” She isn’t real, there’s no one for me here… ” “

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” Dusty Hill ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + SMC Pentax-FA 31mm F1.8 AL Limited )

” I saw that hill before… Unfortunately at that time I was unable to climb it and check what is there that’s hiding from me. I kept looking at it from down below with great curiosity. I knew I would come back here and find out what’s on top of it one day; it was just a matter of time. Not so long after, a few months perhaps, there I was… standing again and looking at it… The pros and cons running through my mind… The decision is made. I am going up. I crossed the road and started climbing it. It’s much higher than I thought it was. I started running. I want it now. I want to see what’s on top of it and I don’t want to wait any longer. I am getting tired. It is much much higher than it looks like from back down. And that wind… the higher I climb the stronger it gets. I start running again. My body produces tremendous amount of heat. I can feel my legs getting all swollen up from all the blood being pumped to muscles. I am walking and sweating. I can feel wind piercing my body. Will I get ill afterwards? Will the wind get me? I run again. My jeans are so tight they will burst any minute now. I keep wondering; how is it possible that my legs got so fat so quick. It feels like they have been hiding their real potential from me. The moment I checked the jeans on my thighs was also the moment I noticed all the mud around me. The soil was wet. What the hell… It was so dry back down. There’s an endless field on my left and right. The only thing that separates me from all this muddy hell is a very narrow path of grass I have been running up the hill. Unfortunately I have also found out that I am not safe even here… With every step I was taking, a big cloud of dirty muddy dust was arising from the grass… I was trapped. I was somewhere in the middle of my way to the top… my boots and the lower part of jeans were dirty, grey and white from all that dust I have been kicking around for the last couple of minutes… The moment of great regret grasped me hard and squeezed painfully. Stupid… so stupid; I thought. Who in their right minds would run up some big ass hill just to find out the view… I was seriously thinking of making my way back down, but what was the point? I would have to go back the same way and giving up now didn’t make any sense. I started running up again, occasionally looking down, only to find out how it hurts my soul seeing all that dust flying on my boots and jeans… Finally I reached the top… There was nothing there… The hill was just flat… and behind it… there was just mud… endless fields of mud… I remembered that one tree I had seen from back down. I decided to meet it in person… Unfortunately, the only way to it, was through the mud… It felt like walking through a minefield. I was scared that my next step will be tragic and my boot will get swallowed or something… After short but utterly stressful and careful walk, I reached the tree… We talked for a while… it was nice. I remember running down as quickly as I could just to have the dusty path behind me. I wasn’t happy back then, but now… when I look at my friend from the hill… You tell me, if it was worth it or not… “

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” I Miss You ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + SMC Pentax-F 50mm F2.8 Macro )

” I don’t know where you are… I don’t even know how you look like… but I miss you… I miss being with you so much… I know you are out there… somewhere… and I am scared… I am so damn scared that we may never have a chance to meet each other. It’s unsettling… Have we already met? Is life playing with us? I can feel, you might be my key to everything. I miss you… I yearn for you… but I don’t even know if I could really live with you… Maybe this is why we have not met each other… maybe I am just not ready yet. Doesn’t matter. I just wanted you to know that I am thinking about you, and I really miss you. One thing I am certain though… If I am not able to give you what is required for your long term happiness… I would rather never see you. I do not want to be your disappointment. I would rather chase a ghost my entire life, rather than being with you, and knowing that I cannot change your life for the better. My inner self is torn apart… I don’t even know what I want any more. I mean, I know… but I also know that the things I want come at price. Actually no… they may come at certain price with the wrong kind of girl, but theoretically speaking, not with you. This is why I want YOU~!! and no one else. I am tired… it’s late. I have to go sleep. I really can’t wait for our first journey… a long drive, hours of walking and exploring, looking at the beautiful world shining in the sun, a delicate breeze… It can’t be just dreams… it feels too real, too vivid and too close… Good night my love, wherever you are… “

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” Autumnal Curtain ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + SMC Pentax-FA* 85mm F1.4 [IF] )

” Happy yellow leaves, dancing in the very last, warm autumnal breeze. Embracing with great passion and love, each remaining ray of sunshine. Soon, everything will turn grey, decay and fade away… But not just yet my dear friend~!! It is now, be happy~!! Dance, smile, hug your mates, laugh and cherish the moment, because after all… this is exactly what life should be about. Work, school, problems in general, are only obstacles on your path of being happy. Some people achieve this state quite easily, others must learn it the hard way. It may take years or even decades to finally realise that happiness is truly in your hands. You have the power to recreate it, whenever you want it. All tears and sadness, are there just to remind you that, it doesn’t have to be like that… and also that you shouldn’t settle for an average life. Those leaves know it, they know their power. Jumping in a wind like a bunch of happy springs, rejoicing in this blissful moment. You can find the light in the darkest places of life. You just need to open your eyes wide enough, and truly wish for it. Autumnal Curtain will soon fall down, and then… winter will come. But until that time though, it doesn’t matter… there is only joy. Learn how to separate your mind from the future and the past, and you will become really close to the art of recreating happiness… “

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” Juiced Out ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + SMC Pentax-FA* 85mm F1.4 [IF] )

” Fruits, a close relatives of vegetables. When you think about the first ones, it’s hard not to think about the second, and the other way around. They are like yin and yang. Vegetables are still quite a mystery to me, but fruits, I believe I have them figured out. Do you know why they are so sweet, delicious and fun to eat? Well, their sole existence reason is to travel, spread across the lands and to guarantee survival of its species. Though, I still do not understand why and how fruits without pits, stones, pips and seeds work in general. I mean if they do not contain them, they kind of invalidate my theory and conception of their existence. Maybe they are only decoys, I don’t know. All seeds are designed to withstand stomach acid, in fact, it prepares them to begin a new life somewhere else once they are pooed out. This is why they look and taste so nice. They are meant to be seen from far, draw our attention with their bright colours, sweet taste and interesting looks. Vegetables on the other hand, well… they taste just okay, do not have vibrant colours; not that it matters a lot since most of them live underground any way, and they are just meh in general. So what do they have so special? Well, I like to call them vitamin bombs. The name itself is self-explanatory, so there is no need to write more about it. I don’t know their purpose of existence just yet, but I believe the nature had to balance them out somehow. Since they are not as attractive as fruits are, perhaps they are packed with lots of good things. I mean, this is what I believe, and it helps me greatly to enjoy eating them even more. Going back to fruit, I freaking love them after a hard physical training~!! There is nothing better to eat right after a gruesome workout. They are juicy, healthy, come with vitamins, and there is something primal and straightforward about it that I like a lot. Thank you for being fruits~!! “

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” Bandage Man ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + SMC Pentax-FA 77mm F1.8 Limited )

Original Street Artist: Anna Matuszewska in association with Galeria Sztuki 58, Radom.

” A face full of scars, eyes filled with tears and a heart shattered by thousands of unfulfilled and broken dreams… Still looking up, still… searching for light. Another dream, another failure… pain… another scar to patch up. Living deep down, below in darkness, almost at the bottom… not low enough to bounce back and regain control, drifting… A soul so battered and ripped apart, it scares with all the hollows, echoes and ever-tearing stitches. Tears changing into pus, life shifting gracefully into a coma… a blissful lethargy, slowly taking everything away. There’s no fight, not anymore, only compliance. Awakening, again. Another vision, another hope. Looking in the mirror, still deformed… unsightly. Nothing has changed, nothing ever does… Euphoria, enlightenment, hope, happiness, enchantment, love… Taking a razor blade, a short glance at a shiny frail piece of steel, time to fail once again. Cutting the soft flesh of own face… warm red liquid covers all. Look, another broken dream… another chance for a new life, another distraction, another mark. A white cloth takes a place of a fresh and swollen wound, I can still feel… I can still dream. What have I become… Will I ever succeed, and start living before I am finally gone… ? “

 

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” The Child’s View ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + SMC Pentax-FA 77mm F1.8 Limited )

Original Street Artist: Anna Matuszewska in association with Galeria Sztuki 58, Radom.

” It is quite fascinating how children’s eyes see the world. It doesn’t matter if they are living in a dream place or just in a poor and grey tenement, their world is still much more colourful than ours. No matter what happens around them, their reality stays pure and innocent. They don’t see things, the way we do. Their lack of sophisticated thinking, and not overthinking things, makes them genuine, frank and transparent in their doings. They don’t worry about the past, the future or even the present… They say and do what they feel and want. Their mind is free, light and focused on the essence of life. They do not limit themselves to the world they are living in, they create their own. The head full of dreams, ideas and a vision that the whole universe is just a giant playground. Unfortunately, somewhere along the way, we start losing this unique ability. Day after day, our mind is getting polluted more and more, our vision blurred and senses mutilated… Soon, we are all stripped-down, left with some single hopes to live on… “

 

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” Seductive Sticks ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + SMC Pentax-FA 77mm F1.8 Limited )

” Flowers… what an amazing example of pure beauty and careful craftsmanship. So innocent, colourful, fragile and seductive… no wonder all bees go crazy about them. I also think, I know why women love them so much… They are not so different from them after all, are they? The thing is, even the most astonishing flower, will never look good, if there is no light shining upon it. Some women are incredibly beautiful… yet they don’t feel that way, because they are living in a shade of other things. All those sensual petals, colourful details and unforgettable scent… All this, just for one reason and one reason alone… A clever programming that keeps everything in check, in perfect order and harmony. A flawless system that keeps the wheel of evolution spinning and spinning. Is breeding really the only thing that keeps us living and dreaming? Do we really share a life of an ordinary bee, looking for our perfect flower, before it gets all wrinkled up and rot away? Do we really have a choice in all this? Was it ever an option? “

 

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” Objects ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + SMC Pentax-FA 31mm F1.8 AL Limited )

” Objects… they are not just objects right? Well, at least not all of them. There is always something more behind their look, an untold story of some kind that only a few know. Colour, shape, choice of material and so much more… it all started as an idea, a concept in someone’s head, and it took a while before that someone, could finally see it in person. We buy things, we use them, and finally we throw them away… all this, without much thinking; why it was made the way it was, or what kind of person could create it. Even the most generic items have this intriguing connection with their original creators. Someone thought about it, turned it into a physical object, and now… you are in possession of it… You have something you can touch, something that was only a someone’s thought at the time… something surreal and completely abstract. You never know if it’s the best work or just an accident, it just is… and it doesn’t change the fact, that the link is still there… A part of someone else’s life, entrapped in an inanimate object… Now go ahead, take a look around you… Who made that bottle? Who thought about its shape? Why is that keyboard black? Who originally imagined, how all those things should look like? We are living in a world of alien thoughts, the thoughts entrapped in objects which constantly surround us… “

 

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” Choo Choo ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-50 + SMC Pentax-FA 31mm F1.8 AL Limited )

” Earth shakes, silent thunders boom, all goes quiet… A new day has just arrived. The glowing gem languidly rising on the horizon, shifting the light left and right, tuning up, adjusting… Concrete sticks huffing and puffing the smoke out, trying to catch a breath and turn the sky into a fluff. A freezing grip holds everything tight, doesn’t let anything move, be happy and glad. Black birds idly waving on stiff branches of the naked trees, waiting for the first warm sunny rays to strike their feathery coats. The bright beams of white mechanical light, far away in distance, wide open, glittering like wild animal eyes in a dark… Who are you, how dare you disrupting this magnificent moment of peace. The time, when everything is still in an innocent bliss… “

 

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