” It Does Not Matter ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + Samyang 8mm F3.5 Fisheye CS II )

” It does not matter…. You do not need a great looking panorama, mountains, rivers, seas and oceans… There is no need for an open sky with a beautiful palette of warm colours from the sun. All you really need is… just yourself. It is you who can create the reality that surrounds you. You have got the power to feel what you want to feel. It doesn’t take much to trigger a chain of positive feelings about something. It takes time to learn how to do it, but once you learn it, it’s like riding a bike. Sometimes, it is triggered by external factors like: the sun, warm breeze, long shadows, or just a random place. It can be anything really. Once you learn to be “sensitive”, you may get triggered unexpectedly by simple things, the little ones; like a smell, or the way someone looked at you. Other times, you have to put in some effort, think about some positive things and chain them manually, creating greater and greater feeling of happiness. Me personally, I love those random encounters that make me feel special and so happy, even though I know they do not last for very long. As for the manual chaining those little happy things into a bigger and more steady state of happiness… Well, I treat it as my plan B, a handy tool to get me out of the darker moments of my thinking. Can you see this photograph? It was one of those random encounters, triggered totally unexpectedly, just by being there. It feels a little bit like jumping into a pool. You just step into it. You go, everything is normal, and at some point you just stop. You start noticing that it feels different in this particular place. There is some kind of unexplained energy beaming from it, and it feels amazing. You just stand there and can’t move, well you can, but you do not want to. Everything feels so beautiful… Warm sun, amazing shadows, even the texture of an old and broken pavement looks out of this world. It just… I don’t know… It feels like my mind is breaching the boundaries of what you can perceive with normal senses. It is addictive. Every time I go for another walk with my camera, I quietly wish to feel that again. I think… I have managed to capture some of it… in this photograph. Please, have a look. “

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” Charcoal Block ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + Samyang 8mm F3.5 Fisheye CS II )

” Move aside~!! One big Charcoal Block of flats, rescue vessel coming right through~!! What am I doing… there’s no time for this. The dark is coming, and nothing can stop it now. The sky has already turned into black goo, and there is no time for any silliness. Soon, everything will drown in blackness… Unholy things will emerge from the shadows of eternity once again, to victimise our reality. We’ve fucked it up… We had it all… There’s no time, people have already bolted all doors and embraced their loved ones. Hell is close… I can smell sulphur odour in the air, and it’s getting stronger every minute. Every fucking 85 years… and I had to be so lucky to get the first-hand experience of it… Focus Chan, you are 6.9 kilometres away from home, and there is no way you are gonna make it before it all starts. Even churches are not safe any more… They are getting smarter. Is this it? Is this the way I am going to go? Fuck… I could have studied pick-locking or stealing cars or something… Those skills would be bloody handy right now, but no… I had to waste my time for some meaningless shit, jesus… I am so stupid. Get a grip TG~!! or you die… I need to get away from the centre. The more people in one place, the worse it might be. I will find some manhole just outside the city. That should give me the best hideout in my scenario. I better start moving fast, the last clouds are vanishing, the sky is almost completely dark, and that fucking stench of rotting life… “

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” Perfectly Twisted ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + Samyang 8mm F3.5 Fisheye CS II )

” Sometimes the world takes a wild turn… So rapid and so violent, that the reality cannot keep up with the change. For a second everything bends and stretches like it’s made from rubber. The things that are too solid and unable to adjust, break and collapse in dust. The minds of people who are not willing to accept the sudden turn, take a massive hit and leave them in shock, paralysed. Others see nothing… The sky goes crazy and clouds bounce from each other like soft balls made of cotton. The rapid change… You can almost hear a high pitched piercing sound, similar to the one of a breaking train. Ah… Now you know what I am talking about… A very few people indeed can hear that sound. But even less, are able to see the change with their own eyes… Why does the world do that…? What is really changing? What caused it? Was the change for the better or worse…? I look at the sky and I know what I saw… I know it was real. I can still hear the ringing in my ear, and that smell… that strong smell of high ionised air… Deja vu… You’ve probably heard about it… haven’t you? Now you know… “

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” Terrestrial Sensors ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + SMC Pentax-FA 31mm F1.8 AL Limited )

” Dancing on the wind… Inertly bending in all directions… weak and powerless, nonetheless, very important. One of the many, terrestrial sensors, constantly gathering new information from the surface of our planet, sending it deep down to the core of the mainframe. They come in different shapes and sizes, but no one really knows how they differ in their functionality. Some people claim that gathered data from our lives is sent directly to the very main CPU. Next, translated and shaped accordingly to what our reality should look like. Funny tiny, fragile antennae if you ask me… and why the hell there are so many of them anyway? It looks like everything is hard-wired. So simple, yet so sophisticated. Can our straightforward thinking ever get us to the point where we fully understand what is going on around us? Is it even possible? Are we capable of such knowledge? Sick tired of all this thinking… I remember grabbing one of those funny wiggly antennae, and shouting straight into it; WHO THE HELL AM I and WHAT AM I DOING HERE~?!! ANSWER ME~!! Unfortunately, I have not received any answer to this day… Perhaps I have grabbed the faulty one… Perhaps, my message has been disrupted by all the rage in my tone? Or maybe I am just mad, and I have been talking to a piece of plant… “

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” A Minute To Breathe ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + SMC Pentax-FA 31mm F1.8 AL Limited )

” Still far away from a destructive human touch… Still green and pure… Somewhere far away from big cities, well hidden behind vast forests… There are still places that remind the Earth what it used to be… A beautiful paradise… A long time before the human disease has spread across its innocent face. A natural flow that is still lively pulsating, nourishing everything that surrounds it, with every single beat of its green heart… it’s striving to take everything back. It’s funny… It has got so much power… It can make us disappear in a matter of few days if not quicker. Yet, it lets us do what we want… gently stepping aside and letting us poke her great patience, with a giant stick of ignorance and disrespect. Everything has got its own limits though, and one day… we will piss it off so much, it will finally break, and show its long bottled up wrath. I wonder if there will ever come a day, when people will be no longer able to look at such sceneries in their natural form. What if what we see today and take for granted, will only be available as a digital media in the future? It makes you think huh? Yea, me too… We just can’t change our nature, can we? We just go forward like a giant bulldozer, destroying everything that stands on our path. There are plenty of people who do not act in that way, but unfortunately they are a minority, and they just cannot stop everyone else… I look at this beautiful scene and I cannot get enough of its magnificence… My eyes go crazy across the land and the sky… I can almost feel a gentle breeze on my face, and this unbelievably fresh and clean air coming from everything that’s green… Let’s just take a minute to breathe… “

 

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” Green Starry Fellow ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + Samyang 8mm F3.5 Fisheye CS II )

” Damn… I feel so lazy today… I should be writing something smart here, but I am so not in the mood… and my god damn lower back hurts too… Anyway, this is the plant and it looks cool. Thanks-Bye-Please come again. Hah, nah… I am just joking… but I really do feel extremely lazy right now, and I don’t feel like I have got some nice writing in me today. Maybe it is the photograph… maybe it is just boring, and this is why I can’t write anything interesting about it? Hmm… but I like it. There is something about this scene. All those shapes, light and patterns, they speak to me in some weird language I do not understand, but I still like what I am hearing nonetheless… It feels like someone has spent more than enough time for this place. Caring about details, preparing it, like she would know that one day I would come and capture her work. I said ‘she’ because I think we can mutually agree, no dude would do such a thing, right? But then again… I might be mistaken. Oh well, it doesn’t really matter who did it anyway. The important thing is, it has been created, and I had a chance to capture it, that is all that matters. I wonder what is your favourite thing in this scene. I totally love the upper part of the lace curtain. It looks like some wicked sea waves during a dark and stormy night. The starry plant itself, doesn’t look too bad either. Hmm… the longer I look at it, the more things I like about it. I am glad it made it through. Damn… all this writing reminded me about very important thing. Never ever force yourself to anything, unless you really have no choice about it. It is just a waste of energy. I don’t say nothing good can come out of it, but the whole process is such a chore, that it may give a totally opposite result in the long run. Just go with the flow, and when it doesn’t go smoothly, leave it there, change direction, and do not look behind. Real talent doesn’t require a heck of a lot of energy to do things, you just do them, and you are not really getting tired from doing them. That’s the beauty of a talent. So, if this is what you are after, it is quite easy to notice if you are on the right path. Take care. “

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” True Enlightenment ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + Samyang 8mm F3.5 Fisheye CS II )

( Pozdrawiam oraz dziekuje przemilym Paniom, ktore pozwolily mnie sie wiercic z aparatem w ich sklepie :* )

” I am so jealous of those who got enlightened… I am so full of envy for the ones who know where to go… Oh, what a feeling must it be… How amazing must it feel to know you can focus all your energy to pursuit your destiny, instead of wasting it for countless searches… How incredible it must be to run as fast as you can, looking only forward, without peripheral thoughts of better alternatives… How marvellous it must be to wake up every day, and know you can do things that will eventually bring you closer to your final goal… How soothing it must be… to have thousands of lights guiding you through the darkness of night… How convenient it must be to know you are on the right path… The awareness that all it takes from now on… is just energy to move forward, towards the great award. I can see thousands of light bulbs shining… Unfortunately none of them are bright enough, to clearly let me know they are the one I should follow… How can I trust any of them, when the light they produce is so weak and dim, I could easily mistake it for my own troubled and hungry imagination…? I keep looking at all of them at once, persistently waiting for one that will go so bright, I will not have any doubt. At the same time I am shaking and praying that the one I am waiting for, is not behind my back… “

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” Got Light ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + Samyang 8mm F3.5 Fisheye CS II )

( Pozdrawiam oraz dziekuje przemilym Paniom, ktore pozwolily mnie sie wiercic z aparatem w ich sklepie :* )

” Got light? Sure thing, bro. But I am still kind of lost and can’t see… I wonder how much light we really need in our lives in order to clearly see where we are heading… Obviously one source is not enough, but what if there is so much light, you cannot see anything beside it? What if it’s still not enough to see in the darkness of destiny…? Do we need one big source of it, or maybe plenty of them but smaller ones where each one of them partially gives hints and completes the full picture in front of our eyes? We walk and turn on more and more lights to better see our path. Sometimes they give light full of bright directions, but sometimes it is very vague and dim, giving nothing but a an outline of what we need. So you keep walking and looking for the new lights with a great hope that the next one will be so bright, that you will be able to finally start running with your life. Stop crawling, stand up and dash like a wind full confidence of what’s ahead of you, taking everything you have been striving for along the way. Are you the light I have been looking for? If so… why the hell am I still feeling like I am surrounded by darkness that’s constraining my movement? It creeps from behind, left side, right side, lurking in shadows of doubt and unknown… Where are you…? I need you… I need your light to show me the path, so I can finally start running… “

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” State Of Cosiness ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + Samyang 8mm F3.5 Fisheye CS II )

” Every place has got a history behind it… Every mark has got its own meaning… but WHAT THE FOCK HAS HAPPENED HERE~?! Oh well, it must have been something if I had taken out my camera and took some shots of it, right? Damn right it is something ~!! It might not be the most cosy place you could have imagined, but I am still in a strong opinion that it is a beautiful and unique view. In a world where everything strives to be perfect, nice and spotless… this stands out and shouts in your face… FUCK YOU AND YOUR PERFECT WORLD MATE~!! And you know what…? I like it. I love it. I just wish I could see and experience every single moment that has scarred this place with its own uniqueness. I would love to feel that anger, hate, love, excitement and everything else that has caused this place to look the way it looks now. It is truly a rare view nowadays… It might not be the prettiest, it doesn’t try to be something it is not, I agree… but it feels real… Real enough to keep you wonder about the rest of the world packed with lies and masks that try to cover your eyes with something that is not really there… So if you ask me, what do I see in this wretched place? My answer would be… Everything that you cannot my dear… because your eyes are not used to see what is real any more. Every single mark is connected to a strong emotional feeling that has occurred at some point in past. It almost feels like a giant raw database, a CD full of music you cannot really hear, a pack of files on a memory stick you cannot read… A secret message that is not to be decoded or understood… merely felt and forgotten… “

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” Peak Peek ” by tgchan ( Pentax K-5 II s + Samyang 8mm F3.5 Fisheye CS II )

” The world… what a playground… You can be whoever you want, do whatever you want, yet most of us stay where we are and do what we do, unable to change the course of destination. It is not so big as we think it is, the world I mean, yet it is big enough. I don’t know… I think I like it. There is so much to discover about it, so many nice places to visit, experience, understand… I love looking at it from above. It feels like a mini-map in a game where I look where I should go next. I look at the horizon and I want to be there… I want to climb another tall building, look far ahead and be there… and be there, and be there, never stop exploring, never stop breathing in its beauty and complexity. Every corner hides a secret, a never-ending journey of surprises, full of treasures to be discovered. Sun, rain, clouds, snow, fog, day, night, morning, afternoon, evening, summer, winter, spring, autumn… So many varieties… Each one of them making the very same place look different, every time you see it… Not to mention the different combination of them together. Isn’t it wonderful? The world can be what we want it to be… it is our playground, we should shape it into whatever we wish for. It acts like a tough cookie to bite on, but once you are true to your needs and yourself… it bends to your will like a freshly boiled noodle. Don’t be afraid to show what you want, go out there, stay true and look how it bends to your knees, giving you exactly what you wanted… “

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